Saturday, March 28, 2009
Very Sick
I think my throat is infected. It started on Thursday. I ate a lolipop that causes my throat to feel dry. I thought it'll go away after a day of rest..but I hardly had enough. A packed weekend for me. It's getting progressively worst. The bad thing is that it's affecting the way I handle things now. It's hard to concentrate and interact properly when half the time I'm tired of the pain and in pain.
I thank God I pulled through today. Although it's a grouchy day. every little thing annoyed me. Had a hard time trying to be nice. Anyway...it does not change the fact that it is a fun day.
Came to Aljunied with Koko, ate with De hui, Winnie, Yuxian, Rebecca, Terry, Tamaguchi and Koko. Hahha...Pris was so happy that she's not the latest but...late nevertheless...hahaha.
Now that I realise that most of them are SP people! Haha! Still it't fun eating with them...Gotta catch up with Yuxian whom I have not seen for a long time. First time eating breakfast with Terryaki, Sponge and Dehui.
Sportz Frenz briefing... was ...tiring? It's not as fun as breakfast...so I'm rather painfully aware of the pain in my throat the entire session. I'm also really exhausted from the pain. So I napped here and there during the briefing. Still I manage to caught enough to be able to brief others...or so I believe. And I believe that I'll need to do that. But a really bad thing happened in the morning. Bernard Chan who promised to come had dissappeared. I don't like christians who lies...especially if they do it so professionally. It's annoying...decieving your own brother or sister. What's up with that. Had not even receive an apology so far.
Travelled home with Edwin.
Was invited to Koko's Church for games! I was extremely nervous at first. Being alone and in a place so new.Did some exploration myself to make myself comfortable with the Church. Queenstown Baptist Church. A really beautiful Church. It's design is really simple. I had an idea that it's a pretty old building. Maybe I'll ask koko later.
As I walk around I find that it's really a homey place. There is this homely feeling. I can almost picture what happens in that place during Sunday. Or maybe what I thought would be nice to see on a sunday in that place. Found some lifeforms that reminds me of my primary school life and reminds me of the creative God. I enjoyed walking around. Although after seeing those big green ants, I'm afraid to wonder around too much lest I walked into a nest of them.
The Youth fellowship is what I attended...Terry and Ester was there! And A staff from SYFC too! The Church people are really really friendly and fun. They are pretty unlinke my Church youths...cliqish. This bunch of people are so much nicer. I later discovered that this is also a Chinese youth ministry.
We had 4 songs for their singspiration and of them, 2 are chinese songs. AND GUESS WHAT!! I manage to sing it! or at least one of it! AWESOME!!!
HAhaha....later I was told that I sang pretty lousy...oops...argh..and off beat too...Welll...can't blame a sick guy can you =D
Game are done in a mixture of Chinese and English. It's kind of battleship game. Supposed to be on Koko's team but got divided to another team. Haha. I really enjoyed the game. Am thinking of introducing it to my church youthys.
Game ended my team won! It's a tough fight. And I learnt alot of new things from the bible and I think my chinese improved too! =D Yeah!
I dream of Yam Milk Tea today...awww....but I didn't get to buy...I was hoping so much to get it in the afternoon....
Hmmm...confession to made...sorry for ignoring you people who talk to me on MSN...I just need a time out...to just type out what's in my mind. There is so many things piling up. I think I'm getting overwhelmed and am I becoming depressed? I dun know.... all I know is my throat is really taking alot out of me...
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Thursday, March 26, 2009
Legend of Chun Li
What a day! It's power packed !
Met Koko at Clemnti MRT today! Along with Ester! Sweet Smelling but colorless.
That's joke that brings back some sad reminiscence about my friend...Daniel.
I do miss him.
Anyway! Had fun throughout the ride. Ester is practically lifeless and non reactive(cause tired) while koko and I tried to give her some life. HAhaha!
Ate and the Mixed Veg Stall...the food tasted weird...argh...It tastes as if it is soaked in Chlorine. Strangely, Koko mentions that it tasted ok...but again..she's a starfish...therefore, cannot taste. After all , all she did is vomit her stomach out to digest the food before sucking it all up. Haha...eeeewww..=P Anyway, I lived on Veg and Been Hoon this morning.
We had our biggest breakfast club...with Prisss, Van, Jun, Tian, Teng (HIP HOPPPPP), Mei, Est and Me! I wonder did it occur to anyone that that is our last breakfast together...as poly serve extension is over.... It's kind of sad for me....but well...got to move on huh?
If you were to see us, youll find us a little queer today..because we are all wearing Hoodies!!! So we looked Hip Hop... But did not have chance totake a photo.
The speaker today spoke of sharing the Gospel...with creative tools. It's pretty Good...not the tools....cos I already know them...ok...it's good but not new. I like how the speaker brings in the Gospel! It's filled with life and not dead like we are presenting an account. He's A Humorous Aussie. I almost wanted to shout out "Hi Mate!" Then goes "Mike Mike Mike..." Like the Seagulls in finding Nemo.
Actually thought there is a movie screened today but I guess that the idea was scraped.Still, I had great fun! We went to the Polys to share the Gospel after that. During Lunch time Koko injured her arm. Didn't noticed. She even cried. Aww..Sorry!
Lunch with Yanren, Tian, Shawn , Kenneth and Litu is very fun. Hahaha...The guys are really great! Kenneth was pretty shy and haha became targets for Yanren, Shawn, Litu and me. Hahaha. He's a super nice guy! Litu Is sick but hahaha when guys get together, the brotherhood cures all illness! =D
Did sharing at NYP. Used one of the tricks had great fun .. Enjoyed my time there.
And Finally, today I've finished the PEP G planning. Great heave of relief.
Pris played DDR with me...seriously...I cannot play it. HAHAHAHAAHA I played beginner and she expert..and I still lose.....awwww...that kind of game is for Dino but again ...she'll probably eat up her competitor and win by Default.
Hmm...We as in Teng, Pris, Van, Thiam, Ko and Me watched a movie! Legend of CHun Li. Was bullied by Koko throughout the movie. My drinks and food are snatched away... and pris helped koko instead of me ...T-T
The Movie as awesomely....no link...with no sub titles and 10 over language. HAhaa...the fighting scenes are funny too....The Accents are off and gives a comic tone to every thing that is happening. Edmund Chen appeared out of place ....which gave rise to a joke...when Chun Li frought Vegas..a masked Guy, she kicked off his mask... I was half expecting Jackie Chan. haha...Why ? His face is all over plaZa Sing!
The Ending is the best.... After doing alot of seemingly good blows to Bison(main baddie), Bison seems unscathed ...all he did is to straighten hissuit and send Chunli flying with uncreative moves. While Chun Li had been dancing a requiem just to kick him. The turn of the fight was really intersting. She poured unmixed cement(at that time I thought It was flour.)on bison. That is the first instance we see his shirt dirty. Then he went into a coughing fit long enogh for the next comical event.
Chun Li master told Chun Li " You know what you must do"
I wondered...do what?
The Chun Li did and elaborated Hadoken...
I Huhed.
The Bison flew and vomit blood ...the Chun Li jump on his head and twist it.
I huhed again? So the key to victory is a Hadoken that requires you to swing your hands as if you are falling backwards?
Hahhaha...anyway...the movie was hilarious and one thing that I know, it is not suppose to be a hilarious movie. HAHAHAHA....
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Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Woke up pretty early today. I expected the trains to be empty but my expectations were not faced. It's crowded. Anyway! I'm pretty excited!! i wanna meet up with the people and eat!
I reached the station around 7.45. Sat all the way to Simei to kill time. Reached back at around 8.10-8.15. Waited at the Aljunied MRT. Was really sadded that I'm the first. Haha...I was trying my best not to be the first. Unbeknowst to me, Patrick came around that timing. We waited at opposite sides of the MRT Map.
(Ok! Take some time to collapse)
Haha..but patrick messaged me and we met. Haha. Tian Xin joined us after that. Chunkit joined us jus before my stomach Declare Abandon your friends and feed me. =D
SO I message all to message me when they reach and I chiong to the Roti Prata Shop! ^^
BUT WAIT
SOMETHING IS WRONG! Where's The ORGANIZER!!!
PRISCILLLLLLAAA
Anyway....She reach after lunch time....WAhhahahahaa...Well Done Comarde and I see that you are still not asleep now. Anyway, she says that she will be on time tml...So I'll blog tomorrow and tell you if she is on time =D. So stay tune for Priscilla Watch in Channel News Aljunied.
They Day flash by pretty slowy.
I learnt that Cushions are really nice and I should sit near them again tomorrow.
I learnt that Koko can laugh till her face turn red and stomach pain and still not stop.
I learnt that if you put Sponge R , Patrick and Tama together, you generate non stop laughter.
Then the day ends...I'm tired in a way....But I'm nervous .... I wanna be done with the many things that needs to be done. IT's Exciting I hope that the Christians are also as excited.
I really wanna see Salvation.
Today...I learnt alot more about someone too... It's pretty cool to find someone pretty similar. Only found a few in life but was as touching today was that someone ACTUALLY ...first time ever, offered to hear out my problems as a friend. Well...other interesting thing done is sharing about people we are interested in. It's scary...but hahah..nvm I got to learn to talk. =D
Waiting for tml's breakfast. Hungry...I think pris will be late...wahahahaha....
Oh...one last thing...someone's life gave me hope about my family..pray hard for my family! There is hope!
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Sunday, March 22, 2009
Money Drops from the Sky!
Hi! All! It's Sunday and wow..the activites of the day are really something to swallow.
First I wanna tell of this miracle that God did for me!
Last week, my $250 was recovered and I passed it to Ronica who is incharge or the Grad Servants Accounts. I passed on the $200 and was allowed to keep the $50 because I do not have any money as my parents have forgotten to give me food money for like months. $50 was deducted from the allowance I'll receive at the end of this month. I was not really happy about it...but well...after sometime of talking to God,I decided to let it go and trust Him with my daily needs. After all, He's been the one whos providing for me in my entire poly life when my parents failed to do so.
Anyway, I started today cashless! I was wondering how to get breakfast. I was also feeling annoyed that I was not able to tithe. Had made it a point to tithe 10% of what I recieve weekly. That's $25. So I was telling God...well...I have no money. You can't blame me. Hahaha.
My brother paid for my breakfast and about that time, I remembered that I have around $30 hidden in a compartment of my wallet! I've forgotten why is it there through... Anyway, I was able to pay for my food but my bro paid for me anyway.
Then another problem occurred to me in Church. Hmm...I have 3 $10 notes. So if I want to give God $25, I'll end up giving $30. I thought of drawing money from my savings. Then I remembered canceling my bank card when I lost my wallet last monday. Which means if I were to give $30 now, I'll be broke. I won't even have money for lunch.
Then I decide to make that step of faith to trust God to provide for my food. I put in the $30. And that's where the fun part begins.
I saw a $50 folded beside the $30 note. I was speechless. My lunch problem is solved. Hahaha. The blessings did not stop there. During the Holy Communion Pastor told me that the Church council agreed to support me $600 for my Grad serve. That's another big worry solved. After Sevice, I had lunch free of Charge as the chinese ministry had some events and are giving free food. Hahhaa...It's a proper meal somemore.
So once again God showed me that He is my provider. I should not get agitated over what I think is unfair or threatening to my welfare.
Played soccer that afternoon. Had great fun and injured my toe. Got kicked when playing bare footed. Ouch....Still hurts when I walk about.
During the Sermon God showed me something interesting. He showed it to me way before the Sermon and then....hahah the sermon happens to talk about it.. Haha..Today's pretty Cool.
16"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,[a] that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. 17For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. 18Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of God's one and only Son.[b]
John 3:16-18.
This is a famous verse used my evangelists. It seems to hold the heart of the gospel.
Recently, I have people asking me why would a good God send people to hell.
I've never noticed this but today, God dawn upon that this simple verse that is often taken for granted actually answered that Question.
Let's pick up the main points of the verse and we will see.
1)God so loved the world
2)he gave his one and only Son
3)whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life
4)God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world
5)but to save the world through him.
6)18Whoever believes in him is not condemned
7) but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of God's one and only Son
Note the bolded parts. God did not send His son to condemn the world. The reason He sent His son is on point 7. Because the world already stands Condemned. Why He did that? Not because He wants to have a whole group for followers. It is written in Luke 19:40 and Matthew 3:8-10 God can raise up followers from stones if He desires. The reason that we have Jesus down here on the Cross for us and proclaiming that He is the only way back to God is in the first line of the verse.
For God So Loved The World...That He Gave His One And Only Son.
Gonna apply that next time in Evangelism. God is not an Egomaniac. He Loves You.
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Friday, March 20, 2009
The End of Poly Serve.
Wow... Poly Serve ended....
Alot has happened.I'm slightly confused and feeling kind of sad that it had to end. Especially when you know you are going to miss the fun and the people... but I shall hope in the extended Poly Serve. Since I'm a Grad Servant, I've by default already signed up for all 5 of the days. Which is not a bad things if you have things...or people to motivate you. Haha.
My Tummy is growling a thunder storm...but my house is filled with nothing that fills the tummy.
Lessons learnt in Poly Serve?
SP people are now also considered to be really fun people!I used to not know much people in SP but currently through poly serve, I met some! Really glad to have met them. They are Rebecca, Sean (Shyan), Terry and Jeanell.
Patience and Trust as I manage a Group.
That Leading a session can be real scary despite being graduated from RP.
Worship Demands your Life. It's not just sunday singspiration.
As A Christain, expect Suffering and Rejection...This is someting I already know and observe. If you really wannna live out your Christian life, people will oppose you. As it is mentioned in 2 Timonthy 2:13 " In fact, everyone who wants to live a righteous live in Christ Jesus will be persecuted." It is a good refresher though.
Love should be a basis and motivation of my work and actions. If I love God, my prayer life will show. If I love people, i shows in how I talk and persuade people with the truth. If I love both God and man, It's called passion.
In fact God has been pretty good to me. He even blessed me with a private Poly Serve Session just for me. Last Wed, after our field work, God using Tengyu, got us to watch a movie Fireproof. This is the Context. I'm someone who needs passion. Because, as a person, I've been hardened, self centred and practically give no regards to God and man. I told God before Poly serve that what I need is passion for Him. To love Him. All I've done till now is only out of obedience. (Haha..must be the way I'm brought up. Same as my parents. The Habit of doing what you need to do and it end there.) However, Seow Chin point out to us that there is no true session that targets our passion. She mentioned that Passion cannot be taught and only God can change our hearts.
So ... back to the movie...It's about passion...=] I learnt the importance of putting your heart in. That genuine love that makes everything different. I learnt also that I'm very afraid of getting hurt. Therefore I do not have that passion. I'm afraid of efforts being rejected or wasted. But I learnt from the movie that it's not by ourselves. Of cos we can't love. How are we to love someone who spat on our work, who repeatedly turn us down no matter how much we do, how do we handle lack of gratitude ...or in short how to love those who don't love or care. The answer is , we can love because of God's Love. We can love because we are like that to God. HE continues to persue us depite the fact that we are stubborn, ungrateful, hostile , rejects Him, chuck Him out of our lives and spat at Him and what he has done and a joke and something that is impossible to believe. Because of that Love that God has for us on the Cross, we can imitate Him and love others. That's passion.
So...Now...I'm gonna learn to be a nicer person. I'll watch my mouth that no harsh words come out of my mouth no matter how bitter or angry I am. I'll start to go the extra mile. In fact, I'm gonna no make life easier for my brother and father by taking my mother's room. (For those who don't know, my mother left us to live with another man and my dad and bro kick me out of the room I once shared with my brother.Ever since then, I've been living a life of rebellion by refusing to take my mother's room...despite being forced to live inside. I slept on the floor in the living room and use the floor as my warobe. Various thing I do to make my life difficult) Still, I realise that this is not going to work. I gotta put myself in a way that they can see God working in my life. I'm gonna arrange the rom. Make it mine and make it nice and neat. Give no excuses to my self then I'll also do more housework.
Anyway, ate with some of the poly serve people to commemorate the end of poly serve. Had loads of fun with lots of good personal sharing. Saw Evie and learnt that she is part of the evangelism work. Wow...all this while I thought that she only study. But I'm humbled again and reminded not to judge. Hahaed the way back to the MRT station with Eunice, Sally and Julia. They are really the funny and self high people. Haha. Went home with Weisheng, Sally, Edmund, Tengyu (Lao Teng)and a guy whos name escapes me. We laugh and laugh because Sally kept creating a scandal between our friend Ginette and me. Which is obviously not true. Then I met Mavis, another of my Churchmate and Evie's Cousin. Hahaha... So It's hahaha with another Self high person.
Read through Jeanell's Blog and remembered my pranks on my group and some poly serve people. Hahaha. And I'm gonna be missed! Woots!. Faints.
Gonna prepare worship for CareGroup Later and also to rally the youths. So many things! Oh oh! Good news! A dear Church mate of mine, Clarence messaged me that he is free the entire of today. And asked if there are any outings. WOW!!! The beginning of this year he was the quiet sit at the corner boy! PRaise God for Changing his Life. My Sec one group really have alot of potential. I hope that God can use me to really lead the people to be people after God's own heart. =D
I think this is it for now. Byes!
Oh! I updated my blog profiles....it's like so out dated. Hahaha.
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Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Lost Wallet Found
Hi All!
It's a long time since I've blogged. Lost the motivation to and it's been pretty busy. Life flashing pass and computer games seems more entertaining than just typing down things.
But here I am again ... blogging ... because life has just taken a pretty interesting spin and I believe that it will be pretty good to share about it.
Here's the update of what's been happening in my life.
I'm Graduating soon! Had a GPA of 3.61. Did not get in to Rolls of Honor at the last Semester of my Poly Life but hey! 3.61! That's above B+. Pretty good for someone who pretty much don't study! Due to the fact that there is little time. (Serving God & Procrastinating)=p
Now am waiting for NS but I'm not the type that sits at home to rot so I decided to look around for what to do to the time I'm given. At first was panicking as there is so many things to do. Prayed and ask God for help. God finally showed me the way by closing the doors one by one.
Now, I'm in Grad Serve. A Short Term Full Time serving in Singapore Youth For Christ. Living on allowances or in a more crude term, on others. Doing pretty well in there. It was not as bad as I expected and I had a lot of fun . Thank God for that. Currently in Poly Serve. A 2 week semester break thingy to build Christians up. Leading a group of pretty ladies with my Churchmate Jun Jie who also happen to join Grad Serve =D So Cool.
Met alot of cool poly students and wow...had loads of fun. Lessons are really great. Am applying to life in hope of becoming a Godly person =D.
However, recently, an exciting miracle took place in my life.
Currently, in my life, I've been living months by having $0 and depending fully on God to provide me. It's pretty exciting because I've survived and am well fed.
15 March,
Typical Sunday. However, this time I'm in Church alone and without my brother. To be honest, I was kind of disappointed when he chose a computer over God. I wanted to reveal to him my father's balant trap or maybe the devil's scheme. However, I kept queit hoping that he can make the right decision on his own. He did not and fell into Dad's attempt to lure us from Church. Anyway, that day, I commit to God that I'll give 10% of what I had for that week (Given to me by Sunny in the Toilet) and what coins are left in my wallet. During the offering, I took out my coins and realised to my horror that I have enough coins to raise my offerring from a 10% to over 20%. I was placed in a tight spot. It is alot of money to me.
In the end, I decide that since I've promised God, then I shall do it. I gave it and yeap...felt no pain. Learnt by now that God does provide.
After that, I even went to play Left4Dead with my Church mates. I did at that time questioned the wisdom of it. Is it worth it to still spend? Well...I did went...reluctantly I must say but hey! I wanna spend time with my church youths.
Here's the interesting thing. Josiah passed me $200 to support me in my Grad Serve program. I was like....wow.... Then Edwin came...and passed me $50...He owe me hahaha....But I was like suddenly a man holding an additional $250. Wow....
16 March the Next Day. I done something real bad in the process, I lost my wallet. And yes...I have everything in my wallet. My money that I've just gotten and my NRIC and my bank card and ya...practically everything. This is a pretty bad situation as you can see. I was at first not really disturbed by it as I believe that my wallet can be easily found. After all it;s in the train that is not boardable by passengers. So I did some prayers asking God to forgive me and asking Him to get my wallet back. I joined in the activity of the day. My worries starts when I realised that my wallet is not found on the train.
Then I became scared actually because of the major inconvienice it will bring and the huge amount of money lost the very day after it was given. Now I have $0. I got angry and I got bitter. I entertained thoughts of revenge on the possible theives. Althought I'm not sure if anyone had stolen it. The rest of the day, I felt sad and at times angry. Carmen gave me some money to travel while ronica gave me money to eat and a pouch to carry the money around. She gave also advice on how I should have carried my money.
I prayed hard. Asking God that I'm satisfied if My wallet is found and my money Gone. I was more afraid of the inconvienced caused.
Later in the day, Jerome Organised Left4Dead with his church mates and us. Tian Xin and Edwin urged me to join in and offered to treat me. So I followed them. They treated me to Aston..and 3 hours of LAN gaming. Not bad for someone who has just lost his wallet. After that, I got to stay in Jerome's house with Edwin. Got extra sleep and yeap...It's fun staying at friend's house. I like sleepovers.
17 March ... I've gotten a call that someone had found my wallet. I was happy...althought it felt kind of empty. My group members encouraged me over lunch that my wallet will be intact. Even with the money. I was skeptical. I was pretty nervous too. God however is good and gracious. He had my wallet returned intact and all the cash are found inside. I was overjoyed.
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