and I, trust You to lead me on. / 要与你同行哦主。引导我生命；一生跟随你。

Sunday, December 30, 2007

Grace!

A word that plays a huge role in the Good News of Jesus Christ.

It's the Grace of God that we are saved and reconciled to God. Not by good works or merit.

Grace is the freely given and undeserved favor you can offer to someone.

It is the thing that is so hard to do nowadays. In a loveless world. People just have to bring upon judgement on each other.

In fact the two most important commandments are totally erased in this perverse world that we live in.

In Matthew 22:37-40, it is written:

37Jesus replied: " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.'
38This is the first and greatest commandment.
39And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'
40All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."

All the law and prophets hang on this two commandments huh? Anyone can see why the world is the way it is now. Honestly speaking, no one can call this world good. However, it was once called Good. In fact, God referred to his creation as good several times in the beginning. When He created Earth.

How come then is it like that? How come there are so much suffering ? How come we cannot see God? How come there is so much confusion and pain?

Shortly after the chapters of creation, in Genesis 3, the third chapter of the first book in the bible, we see man turned their face from God. They went against God's clear instructions and then blamed God for it.

It must have been really painful for God. A tree placed there as a test. Eve chose to be be independant and ate to fruit . Believing that God was keeping good things from them. In fact , there were two trees in the Garden of Eden. The Tree of Life and the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. They were asked to stay clear from the second tree. They have full access to the first tree. It's really sad for them to have not trust God.

I typed them because Adam was there when the serpent tempt Eve. He did nothing. They chose to believe the serpents words over God's words. ouch.

God came to walk in the Garden. They hid from God. It's cleared that they have already severed themselves from God. They cannot face God anymore. Then there was the opportunity to repent and ask for forgiveness. Adam. blamed God for putting Eve with him and Eve blamed the serpent for decieving her. I guess you can see how much God must be grieving in his heart.

He came down searching for them. He offered a chance for them to return to Him. They claimed innnocence and Adam...the first one God created in His image blamed and accused him unrighteously. I can sort of empathise with Father here. He gave me my shaare of such experiences. Such behaviours are still displayed today. People chose to put God out of the picture. When everything starts to fall , they blamed God and claimed that He do not exist because of all that has happened. The first mistake is still carried out.

However, in the same chapter right after God metes out discipline and judgement, He showed his grace and mercy. Do you know that the third chapter contains the first hint of God's plan of Salvation to redeem man through Christ Jesus?

Just one verse after the judgement verses of 14- 19 at verse 21 to 24, God showed that He still loves us. Adam and Eve covered themselves with leaves. A rather bad attempt. God made garments of skin for them. Which are more lasting and better as clothes. Big deal? Imagine having to destroy what you have created and what you have called good. God have to kill.
Can you imagine the grief of God? That is how serious the situation is. turning from God means death and not long after Adam and eve left God's prescence, the first murder occurs. Without God, the only role model for humanity, humans cannot hope to live a normal life. In fact, one of the greatest lie the devil place in our head is the we are living normal lives.

The truth is, we are far from normal. We are children without parents. On our own to decide what is right for ourselves. The reason this is the worse case senario is because we cannot live a righteous life without God. unfortunately the knowledge of Good and Evil contains neither batteries or the wisdom to choose the right.

In short, we are doomed. Be glad that God kicked Adam and Eve out of the Garden. if they were to eat from the tree of life, they'll live forever and forever suffer for their mistakes as they grow increasingly wicked and hardened. God's plan was to give his life and take our place in judgement as he is now the only righteous one . The only one who can take our place.

A friend once told me this. He cannot understand how God can love us so much.
This are his actual words. " Yu Ki. I don't know how God can love us so much much. I mean, look around you. If I am God, I'll would have flush everything down the toilet and made little green men."

God has that decision. The Power to eradicate. To restart. he didn't chose it. He didn't throw the relationship aside just because it did not work out. He chose to gave His life up to redeem what has become hostile to Him. A people who has become unholy and wicked. Totally opposite of God.

For a people deserving death, He chose to give His life.

2000++ years ago, God came and walked the earth as a man. He clothe Himself with frail humantiy . He open himself to pain and suffering. To walk among His creation and ultimately, He is going to die for them. He gave Himself a name. That Name was Jesus Christ.

In Acts 4:12, It is written.
Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved."

God's plan is to come to live a righteous life a a human. Then He'll be the sacrificial lamb. The righteous one, the only worthy one to take our place. I cannot take your place....neither can you take mine for we are all imperfect. We are all unable to save ourselves.

Romans 3:9-18, it is written.

9What shall we conclude then? Are we any better? Not at all! We have already made the charge that Jews and Gentiles alike are all under sin.
10As it is written: "There is no one righteous, not even one;
11there is no one who understands, no one who seeks God.
12All have turned away, they have together become worthless; there is no one who does good, not even one."
13"Their throats are open graves; their tongues practice deceit.""The poison of vipers is on their lips."
14"Their mouths are full of cursing and bitterness."
15"Their feet are swift to shed blood;
16ruin and misery mark their ways,
17and the way of peace they do not know."
18"There is no fear of God before their eyes."

In Romans 3:23, It is written,

23for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God

We are unable to save ourself. God came for us instead. Suffered in the hands of His own creation, was murdered by his own people, decended to hell for 3 days and on the third days, He rose again. having victory over death, He offer this gift of salvation to all. That whoever believes in Him, will not perish but have eternal life. True Life that begins the moment you place your faith in Him.

John 3:16
16"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

John 17:3
3Now this is eternal life: that they may know you, the only true God, and Jesus Christ, whom you have sent.

No amount of works will saved you for you just cannot meet God's perfect standard. Neither are you good enough to return to God.

In Isaiah 64:6 it is clearly stated.
6 All of us have become like one who is unclean, and all our righteous acts are like filthy rags; we all shrivel up like a leaf, and like the wind our sins sweep us away.

So how do we recieve this gift of Salvation?
In Romans 10:9-13 it is written.

9That if you confess with your mouth, "Jesus is Lord," and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.
10For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you confess and are saved.
11As the Scripture says, "Anyone who trusts in him will never be put to shame."
12For there is no difference between Jew and Gentile—the same Lord is Lord of all and richly blesses all who call on him,
13for, "Everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved."

Yes...You'll have to call upon God and believe in Him.
God is real and He hears His people.
A simple prayer of asking God to come into your life is enough.
Prayer is like a means to talk to God. Really simple and when you get to know God more, you'll understand how it actually works and it'll be more natural to you.

It starts with calling upon God's name(Of course) and then ending in Jesus Name. Why so? We are speaking through Jesus Righteousness.

A simple prayer to recieve salvation is :

Heavenly Father,
I thank you for loving me and dying on the cross for me.
I confess that I have live my life indepenant of you.
I believe you and I accept you as my Lord and Savior.
Thank you for forgiving me, giving me eternal life and making me whole.
Lead me as you know best.
In Jesus name I pray.
Amen.

Hmm...Gotta Go...Time is running out. I have a meeting at 12!!! Argh!!
Hmmm....Guess Desmond you'll need to talk to me then. God must have decided that I should save that for person to person only.

I will not give up. I'll hold on. Fail I may at many times. Imperfect as I am. I will push on. My prayer is this that God you'll use me.

Lord.
Bless me and bless me much that I may be a blessing to others.
Equip me and Strengthen me. Expand my territories that I may glorify you in more aspects of my life.
Yet Lord, be with me always for I cannot stand without my tower, my refuge, my stronghold, my righteousness. Father...may your hand and favor rest upon me for I dare not move without you first moving before me.
Lastly Lord...keep me from evil. Keep me from all wickedness. Keep me from sin that so easily entangles. That Lord I will not cause pain. Not to You, Not to those around me and not to me for my soul is weary from all the pain that I have caused.
Lord, do not take your holy spirit from me or turn your face from me. Hear my cry ... Against all unrighteousness and myself.
In Jesus name I pray.
Amen

Friday, December 28, 2007

Youth Camp 2008!!

Oooo!!

Standford , Stacy and Stacy Change contact number! No wonder I cannot contact them.

Ivan changed his E-mail too. Later I'll need to add the new one.

I've just returned from THE YF 2008 End Year Fun Camp!
The Theme is Prepare The Way.

And...and I can really see how God prepare the way for each of us. It's really touching when I step back and look at what is happening around the campsite.

There are loads of games and I am hoarse from shouting and cheering. The games are great! I never had so much fun for such a long time.God grant me much fun in Rounders and Final Clash. It's great.

I must confess that I as a moody guy for a huge part of the camp. I guess it is due to pride? Looking down on people? I got to work on that! For God and His Glory!

Played much with the younger youths. They are so funny and entertaining. Sometimes I wondered if they are sane or not. haha.

Ohoh! I injured CARRIE!!!
Nooo!!!Poor Dino's down!! Sobs...sorry Carrie.

I'm super dehydrated and tired now. My slippers are still attention grabbing. wow...

The skid was fun! I thought we made a mess of ourselves....but...everybody liked our skid and....WE ARE THE CHAMPION TEAM !!!!

Noah Noah Noah,
Noah Noah Noah,
Noah Noah Noah,
We're number one!

Noah Noah Noah,
Noah Noah Noah,
Noah Noah Noah,
We're number one!

Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooahh!!!

great surprise.

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Napping
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Woke up....Now that I'm more enerised...I believe I can blog more coherently.

Anyway!

Interesting things that happened in the camp is how I see God work throught the lives of people ...affirming that if they seek God first, all will be given onto them.

Last day worship was great. Impromptu and a bunch of over high youths. Worship was great. I bit to loud for my liking though. Haha. Still the heart of worship is great. I just wish that that is possible for all worships....not only fast or when the people is high.

Ohoh! There is this game handy plus. A sadistic game. Don't usually like such games but I joined in one at the last night. I injured CARRIE!! AHH!! So Sorry Dino!!!! Welll....Handy plus is a game where people hit people. Well....I should make it a point to sit beside guys next time.

Well..one thing I'm glad is that the non believers get to heaar tthe Gospel. This monday I am invited to join another Gospel sharing event.Hmmm....

The Talentime was great.....

Hahah!! Don't know why but I don't feel like blogging too much down now. Anyway, The dark moods are lifting.

The battle's won for close to a week now. I heard that my other comardes aren't doing too well....must pray must pray. Satan is going hard on us but the Lord our God is the King od Kings and the Lord of Lord! Nothing short of victory and glory awaits us.

GRACE LIKE RAIN

Amazing grace, how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost but now I'm found
Was blind but now I see so clearly

Hallelujah, grace like rain falls down on me
Hallelujah, all my stains are washed away, washed away

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed

Hallelujah, grace like rain falls down on me
Hallelujah, all my stains are washed away, washed away

When we've been there ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun
We've no less days to sing Your praise
Than when we first begun

Hallelujah, grace like rain falls down on me
Hallelujah, all my stains are washed away, washed away

Hallelujah, grace like rain falls down on me
Hallelujah, all my stains are washed away, washed away

The lyrics is beautiful...So much joy and hope.

Anyway...I'm gonna chat with my Mortal le!! Bye!!!

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Path of the Parasite.

Hmmm...It's a long while since I blogged.

To be honest, the reason I do not blog is not only because of time but also of a slight depression. In short I don't really want to fill this blog with things that cause people to emo. Therefore I stopped for a while.

So does me blogging now indicate that things are better now?

Erm... in a way yes and in a way no.

I can see some light in the darkness now. Glimmers here and there but i'm still very dependant on God in this dark and bleak valley of death. Ironically it's me that keep casting God's saving hand away. Haha...Stupid boy. Silly me.

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P.S. The Dog is sleeping on my mattress now...It got guts...but after I blogged, it's gonna get it from me. Wahhahaha...
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Anyway...today is rather interesting.

This is the account of what happen today.

I have two major meetings today

1) SYFC Street Evangelism
2) CCC First Coverage and Recuitment Meeting

Hmmm...The Street Evangelism did not turn up well. We are suppose to meet. But somehow , a brother in Christ had accidentally mistook another person for me and thought that I will not be able to make it for today. He cancelled the whole thing. I was the only one there. Thank God that I was the only one affected because the other co-labourer in Christ was late . Thank God too that He recently put in my heart to read a rather interesting book series. So I can safetly say that no one was affected badly.

Anyway, I was wondering what to do after that. There is just so much free time. I messaged Stanford, Stacy and Stacia to check if they are home or not. I felt pretty weird when I messaged them. Felt as if I'm checking to see if they are not in trouble . Hahahaha. They did not reply.

Probably God's intervention. Eariler I prayed and ask God for direction what to do next. I wondered for a while before messaging my CCC bros and siss. Well.. one of them is working there. So I decided to move towards the venue of my CCC meeting although it is too early.

Got there. Saved a moth. Not much trouble but I killed time with chit chat and reading.

Oh! I have $1.15 today. I spent $1.10 in bread. I asked God for providance. God gave me some biscuit in the GCTC. Well...Sustained me for a while but my hunger wsd kept at bay throughout the meeting . Thank God.

Michelle, Benjamin, Estella and Wan teng are present. It's really refreshing to see them again! Especially Michelle( My MissionTrip Mortal) and Benjamin.

We have a great time. The commitment is scary too. It's really big and I really need to remove alot of distractions to attempt it.

After that i sent Michelle and Banjamin off to their next Destination.

Prepared my stuff and walked all the way from home to my mother's current home.
God blessed me through my mom with $50. Thank God! I need that.
Haha.

I watched Aliens 1. Really nice show. I love such shows. Haha. Although more action could have been added realistically.

Carrie Called. I had a really nice time chatting with her. She is one of those few I'm actually comfortable with. Why? I cannot tell. Anyway, she reminded me that Christmas is near and I have not done any christmas Preparation.

Aiya...

Hmmm...anyway. I evaluate myself today.

I'm still pretty unstable Spiritually, Physically, Emotionally and mentally. I really need rest to recuperate. The factors however, is not with me. There are still certain stress factors that will further degrade my current status.

Honestly speaking, someone made a huge impact upon me today. I could only barely stand. Hmmm...Hmmm....Like I say, emotionally, I'm a little broken.

Prayer Requests
1) Christians to remain faithful and safe in walking with God.
2) God's work and Labourer be protected.

Ta da!.

Friday, December 07, 2007

The not so brights

You Got It ! Today we are disscussing about the not so bright people we have living in this world.

Firstly, let me introduce you to someonw who has just missed his module selection and is still doing nothing about it. In clear sense, this dumb guy is commiting suicide. Strangely, he told me he felt neither fear nor worry. After a short reflection time, he told me that mayby he is just so tired of life that he could not care anymore.

He says that he is so tired. Not physically but morally, emotionally and spirtually.

His's name is Yu Ki and he fights hard to hold on to whatever compassion he has left in him.

Anyway, let's not talk about him. Lest he finds out and start to hound me for life.

Haha.
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Biking has shown me a few defects in people nowadays. They believe in looking at you till you almost knock them down and yet not discovered all the while you were hinting politely to ask them to get out of the way.

They are mostly old people. Slow.... Hahaha....Diao.

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I''m going to miss my classmates. Really.

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I'm wondering where God wants me to be and what He wants me to do?

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I need more sleep
I need more QT
I need to clear my head of wicked thoughts

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I need to right my life with God

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

PP Presentation

wow... Pp Presentation finally ended. A heavy burden off my shoulder now. Thank God. Let me tell you about this day. It started with a failure. Hnr mm... Not really nice.

Anyway, I had to cycle and hold an umbrella. initially, I thought I cannot make it. After much thoughts, i decided to do it. Holding the umbrella with my left hand, i cycled with my right hand. TOugh? nope ... it became nothing in a short time.

The presentation itself was not difficult and I believed I impressed my assessors. Great! Their comment for me are really good too. I'm safe for now. Wahahaha.

You know what ? I made good friends with the other two that presented along side with me. So we all had a really enjoyable time in contrast to the thousands of stressed students around us.

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Anyway, with the help of a few friends, I over came a particularly difficult rock wall yesterday. Whereby there are parts where there are not enough grips. I can be tip toeing an still not be able to hold the nest grip.(A good 30 cm away) Alot of jumoing. In rock climbing terms I believe it is called dinoing. Cool.

But rock climbing stopped till next year, .... Maximun saddness. T-T

Tooo bad.

Hmmm... the future is unfolding. Surely and slowly. It's blurred to one who again strayed from God....Hmmm Me...oops. Anyway. I can see something big coming. It's vague but big....