Sunday, September 30, 2007

Project Conclusion

Project Conclusion

Earlier posts ....(tried to find but cannot find) states of me starting the project. The project ended today.

Let's evaluate. =]

Project Title: Desperate Birthday Girl

Yeap....I chose this title on the very day I started this project.

Purpose of starting it? To prove to a certain person that she has friends. She kept whining about nobody cares for her anymore. So I wager with her that I'll get 10 person down to celebrate her birthday. I did remember to demand something in return but now, I forgot le. Man....I can't profit this way. Wahahahaz.

Anyway..this is what happen. In a time line.

Start
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Planned a little
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Person annoyed me...Decides to abandon plan.
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God taught me to love your neighbours , enemies.
1 John 4:19-21(God hits on the spot)
John 13:34-35
John 15: 12-13
Etc
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Repented and restarted to plan.
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Thought of Settler's Cafe
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Tried to visit. Failed
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Tried to find again . Succeeded but stunned by cost.
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Loss of ideas
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God taught about spiritual leadership: Application wise: In all things, big or small, do in God.
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Ask God for help.
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God answered through Jimmy who has no idea at all and Steffi who was part of the planning team, Jimmy however contributed unknowingly the most important part; the Venue.
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Short of money.
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Asked God. God provides instantly Through Grandma and dad
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Thought of encouragement posters , Stacia unwittingly contributed. Steffi tried but failed to get.
Yu Ki dead worried.
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God arranged me two day before the event to partake in a meeting. Before that meeting...went to shop. Found the gifts. A variation from the original poster idea + real gifts. Hahaz.
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God shared a plan after I finally decided to listen to Him. Shared an important point. Carrie.
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One day before....Decided to as Josiah for a cake. Josiah...not free...God sent his niece who supposed to be unable to join us . Eunice graciously provided the 2 cakes and even joined us.
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Visited Long John Silver to ask for permission to celebrate birthday. Check to see if there is a cake shop in case Eunice failed to deliver cakes.
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On that day. Carried out the plan. success.

THE PLAN

Escort Team
Steffi[Leader]
Stacy
Stacia
Carine
Carrie(Birthday Girl)
Angelina(Birthday Girl)

Objective:
To distract the birthday girls that they may not interfere with their own surprise. Whom are pretty good at it. One succeeded ...the other almost succeeded.

Surprise Team
Christopher[Leader]
Matthew
stanford
Ivan
Fengnan
Eunice
Jimmy
Paul
Liu Shuai
Jermyn

Objective:
Get to Long John Silver unnoticed and before the Birthday girls with time to be briefed on what to do. Surprise the Birthday Girls.

Birthday Cake Team
Yu Ki[Leader]
Gordon

Objective:
Book the Place, Get the cake safely from Church to Long John Silver. Be unnoticed.

The Birthday Committee.
Steffi
Yu Ki

Idea Contributer (Notice that most gave ideas unknowingly through God)
Steffi (Possible Methods)
Yu Ki(Linker)
Stacia(Gift Creativity)
Jimmy(Venue)

Flow of Plan
Situation : Angelina thought that no one would plan for her birthday. Yu Ki abandoned plan to plan her birthday. Steffi instead, has asked her out. along with Stacy , Stacia , Carine and Carrie.
Carrie has no idea that her birthday is going to be celebrated too. She thought all this is done only for Angelina.

10. 30pm Service ends
>Escort team distract Angelina to prevent her from noticing The Surprise and Birthday Cake team.
>Birthday Cake team gets the cake and move out.
10.30pm to 10.50pm
>Surprise Team moved out in different groups to Long John Silver.
10.50pm
>Surprise team arrived and briefing starts.
>Escort Team starts to travelled to Long John Silver
11pm
> Surprise! Happy Birthday!

On the Actual Day what happened.
10.30pm Service is still going on.
10.50pm Service ended
>Birthday Girl Carrie MIA.
>Escort team successfully dragged Angelina from Birthday Cake Team.
> Fengnan supposely transferred to Birthday Cake Team is missing.
> Birthday cake team left with Cake.
> Escort Team's tactic. Get Birthday Girl to Kindergarden room to play first.
> Surprise team moves out immediately . Leader Christopher decisively planned to signal to Escort team when everyone is at Destination.
> No all invited people turn up. but those in the list above turned up. Some are last minute crashers!
> Discover..no money.
> Everybody pool in money .Just nice
>Escort team Reached....not after we spammed Carrie for not turning up.
>Celebrated.
>Carrie came late.

What' Good.
- Planning relied on God.
- Birthday girls had fun.
- Plan did not go as planned but worked out well.
- Miraculous. Supplication of Ideas and Funds as well as tolerance.
- Character Development for Me.

What's bad.
- Loose tongue/Temper.
- Both Birthday Girls might have knew the plans.(Carelessness)
- Costly
- Room for improvements

Cost of birthday .
2 Cakes: $16
Gifts : $17.00++
Birthday Girl's Treat: $3.90
Food: $5
Total Cost : $41.90

Wow....Fantastic!

At least all went well.

Oh ya...The mask is lifted..no longer need to be extra nice.Hees.

Saturday, September 29, 2007

The Mask

The Mask

Honestly, I can't wait. I can't wait to spill the beans . I've been bottling up for quite awhile. All for some people's sake. However, after tommorrow. I'll spill everything out. The truth will be out.

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Yes...I was Emo Just now. Wasn't entirely your fault. Don't worry your head off and forgive me for my lousy attitude these Saturdays and Sundays.
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Hmmm.....I thought aloud " What happens when someone loses his or her heart of compassion?"

My Friend Jacob asked. Are you ok?

I answered....Yes. I did not know that I'll lose it in the next few days to come.
Now am finding it. Trying to get rid of the "Serve you right" mentality and the extremely short fuse.

Hmmm....Short fuse....why?

Any way, tml everything will be exposed. The Real Plan will then be set in motion. =]

One secret ...a preview. I hate putting on a fake face. I hate it more when people rub it in. Unless they are either not directly involved or they are within a certain trusted grace.

Now...maybe you'll know what kind of stuff I'll spill out.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Jogging after Blood Donating is a Bad Idea

Hmm..Wed....I love weds....THEY signify rest. Hahaz.

I wonder am I still leading worships? Cos..Ivan has not approach me yet. Hmm..If Don can take over it'll be perfect. Hees!

Bro , Ting , Me.....Bro looks so formal.

Bro , Hui , Me We are gonna need to look like flowers to take photo with her!

Hui, Me This looks like some classical movie thingy.

Me Carrying Yong! Strong Me ! Wahahaz.....Can't wait till I recover!

Bro and Me LOVES THIS! We are like the greatest siblings!
Matchless in teamwork

Mei is So cute!! So must act Cute!

The Cousins.......Batteries not included

Now she's short,

Now she's tall!

Gonna pick up some styles from my bro So as not to look too nerdy.

Phew....Tuesday was fun! Cousins night out! Check out all the Lanterns we burn ..PLUS all the candles we lit. Of Course that is not the essence of the gathering. In fact, I did not start any FIRE! ....I do however add things to the fire that was already started. BUT WAIT!! I'm the fireman there k? Which means I put out the most fires!.....

Can't believe It sia!! People like to accuse me. hahaz..I look like criminal ..hahaz...Sobz... One of my cousins wronged me for starting fires. Complained me somemore....I quickly landed a hammer on her...oops... Nah..It's for the fun of it. She's the youngest yet talked the most.

Not real hammer....it's a figurative speech...mind you...xp

Cousins are going to meet up to study! Looks pretty good to me! After all we are Cousins . Yet we once treat each others like strangers. This is good progessment!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I went Jogging just now. Actually had depended on a Sis to remind me to jog. Told her to message me when ever she jogs so I can pick myself up to jog....guess she has forgotten..............T-T...Sis......

Still today wasn't a good experience...My body have not recovered.....But it's like 6 days already! Does blood donation drain so much out of you?
How long should I rest? ....Hmmm.....I think I know why.....

I ran 2.4km... then stopped and decide that this is a good starter. Did 6 pull ups...Man..I greatly deproved..... Then I started to feel numb.....oh no....this is familliar...way tooo familiar....felt like how I felt 6 days ago. Yes! It's the feeling after I donated blood. I hurried home. I felt like vomiting and my heart hurts.

I thought I'll faint but thank God I made it home.... Poured Boiled water with Ice. Rested a while on the floor. Hmmm.....How timely it was for God to taught me to rest with my legs elevated. He knows the best time...always.

Hmmm....School starts tommorrow! Am So excited! I love my classmates!

Oh...need to prepare loads of stuff!! Gonna do CE tomorrow~!! I'm so excited!! Pray hard that God will use us! Christians!!

PRAYER REQUESTS!!

Amber ~ To Cope with Transition to a new Ministry.
~ The stress!
~ That she'll do well there!

Carmen ~ To be able to handle workload!
~ To be able to handle the stress of managing the Poly christians!
~ Cope with Transition to full time ministry.

Yu Ki ~ Recover fast.
~ Find time to study....Dun play too much, Watch anime too much or read manga too much.
~ Seeks GOd with his whole heart

Zhen Xiong's PeP ~ Grow in God
~ Be fruitful in tomorrow's CE!

Yu Ki's PEP ~ Be Faithful!
~ Stabilised and grow.

Carmen's PEP ~ Either Ian or Eugene to be called to take lead!
~ To grow and stabilise!

Gonna sleep le!!
Lotsa...Love from God and me!

Monday, September 24, 2007

What a Day!

What a Day!

NO PRESENTATION!
Sounds good? Actually no...It's thesound of disaster.... This new faci I have is rather interesting. The holds the Iron Fist as if it's a candy. I was inobservant. The price was high. My team did not get to present.

I'm so sorry team. I should have been more attentive.

Still still I'm worried...He may downgrade my team.

Bro was annoying today.....but I shall spare him my warth since he is siick...

Poor Thing T-T....

Going to play with lanterns on tues...Hmm..Don wants to restring my guitar! Yeah! ...

Hmmmso late le...whos fault? GORDON! xp !

I'll Feed your rabbit your hair.

Saturday, September 22, 2007

Something's Off

Something's Off

Great....I severed connections with God again....Now now...where is that Cord...Gonna duct taped it back.

I need prayers! I need to stick close to God.

Tap Tap...

Nehemiah Chapter 9!

Read that!

Ask God to speak to you!

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Hmmm.....

hmmm~~~~

Lets see what tomorrow brings. =]

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Lone Wolf

Lone Wolf

Went blood donation today. Was my first time.
Is my fear and is still an unconquered barrier but I'm scaling it! It won't be long. I'll overcome this fear ... just as I have overcame Heights and Prawns

I have the fear of drawing blood. It's an irrational fear. A fear that makes no sense . A fear that exist without meaning or reason. It does nothing but to immoblise and weaken me.

Today! I'm of age. I confronted it head on.

I started by asking for people to go with me. I was of course hoping for people to stand by me...but....like most of the time (no longer all the time ) I'm alone.

So I walked to the counter. But was asked to eat first...diao.... So I went to eat and returned....(Anti Climax right? haha)

I entered.

Filled the forms...went through the Doctors. I was scared...Was a bit of clumsy too.

Then I reach the counter that test whether your blood contains enough Iron. The first blood shedding took place here. The nurse swab my finger with Alcohol. Then she use so weird thing to puncture my skin. Blood pour out. she uses what I thought was a yakult straw to draw my blood.

I dismissed the idea later....It should be some straw..but not yakult...dots...what was I thinking...
It was disgusting. the nurse squeezed my finger and the blood kept squirting out. Then the took the blood. It flow into the straw! HOW THAT HAPPEN? How she suck my blood with the straw? I see no vaccuum. LOL!

Anyway the interesting thing come next. She drop my blood into a clear blue solution. Not much different from a copper sulphate solution. If my blood sinks, it means that thee is enough iron...if not, I'm not ironed enough.

I watch as my blood sink...to join many droplets below...yuck.

I proceed..to the last stage. I lie on the couch thingy. I am really scare. I felt restless and agitated. I wished and hope for someone to be there....well..I got no one except the One who is always there..

Did a litle chit chat with God.

I felt like crying...I am very afriad...Oh...for your info...this was my biggest fear. HAhaz...Never thought that I fear something huh? WeLL PEOPLE ! NOW YOU KNOW!

The nurse came. Injected the painkiller ..I winced...The the huge needle....but the pain killer did it's work and I felt nothing. But Like I say...I don't fear the pain. I fear the drawing blood. I forced my self to look at the blood flow. The nurse was drawing around 7 test tubes for testing. I saw my blood flow like liquid into it....so much....I looked away a few times....Horrified...but I always turn back....I must beat it.

Even as I blog, I feel sick. I went through the ordeal.....20+ minutes....

I had difficulty breathing my heartbeat was eminent in my hearts..it seems weak and irregular....fear seems to stop scaring me and start choking me. I felt paralysed. Strangly annoyance could not find strength to raise it's ugly head.

Then my hand started to go numb. Fear gripped hard this time.I raise my hand to summon a nurse. She came and hurriedly stop the tranfusion. It's done. My vision turned white. My head felt light. My whole arm is numb.

The nurse readjust the couch so that my legs are higher than my head. I felt really cold...Was close to delirious. All I could think of is that I'm hungry and thirsty. Wasn't given water through...I was left to try stabilise my thoughts. I took...around 10+ minutes to recover.

Weak sia...but soon..I'll be stronger...with repeated tries to donate blood...and then I'll conquer this fear! People will benefit too!

I don't know...but I have this bugging feeling that something in my blood will harm the reciever....dun know....autoimmune response? hahaz

Wahaha..Ariel says I put alot of negative things. Oops.... hahaz... Must put good things le....not that good things don't happen. I realise that I focus alot on bad happenings. I have so much to thank for.

Beautiful Class
First ever Blood Donation
A friend to walk to school with.
Macdonald breakfast( long time lor)
In the Course I want
Life in safely in God's hands
He who is strong stands by me Deut 31:8
Many many more....

SO ARIEL!! THANK YOU FOR THE CONCERN! GOD BLESS YOU!! ME CHIA CHEER UP LE!

*SMileS*

BOOOOOO!!

Hahaz....Faint right?

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

What wrong?

What wrong?

Huh? So what? Is there anything wrong? Why you people are giving me the weird looks? Don't give me that if you yourself have not proven worthy to give that look or have that thought.

I wanted so much to keep it a secret but somehow people will ask. Annoying sia. Still..I'll not blog it down . BLAHHHHHHxp.

really have no time to blog lei...annoying sia....11 le...need to sleep Good nights!

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Grumpy Grumpy

Grumpy Grumpy

Still adjusting to my newly planned life. Few factors proved to be rather annoying.

1) Me Family.

This is so irritating. Yesterday was a tired and draining day. I finally found Settler's Cafe. Pretty little place. Now...I hope I can gather 17 people. Hmmm....Sounds really really difficult. Wished that the Church youth can be a little less exam worry wort and more come together enthu.

The price was really scary through....$16.50 Poof....I wished I am alot richer than I am....I think...I'll demand a certain amount of money from Mom and Dad from now on. $70 a week?
That's $10 for each day and $210 Dollars a month...Hmmm...or $60 Dollars a week.... I guess $60 a week would not be too much...I don't know.....arghhh..I wish that I can get my own money.

Anyway...Mom and Dad ticked me of with their silly squabbling. Mom called and discovered I have no money left. Called to scold Dad. Dad wasn't home cos He went fishing. Well cut the long story short, I get to see him black faced. Hahaz...I didn't care much....I've achieve the objective of the day. Find Settler's Cafe.

What annoy me is this.I was preparing food ...some new recipe of mixing this and that....smells Good and I was ready to eat. Bro said. Dad below we go down to eat. Now that was annoying... still want me to throw my new creation away. That ain't bright.

Anyway I put it under a plate hoping that it'll be warm when I finished dinner. Thank God it was! Wooohooo! Tasted Goood!

Ohhh! Ya! I was treated to a $150 9 session course. For Free!! Thank You UNCLE KIT!!!

Awww....Hungry....Wait...I'll eat during lunch.....Life must change.....ME for the better ME and of course....the others hopefully to the better. hahaz....

I WANNNA GO JOGGING!!!

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Bitter Pain

Bitter Pain

8.40pm.....

I reached home...

My body aches...

My stomach grumbled...

I feel cold...

I craved for sugar...

I craved for water...

If someone were to touch me, he or she will jump with fright...

My body was dead cold...

My Reconnaissance was a failure today. I paid a high price for it.

I started searching for Settler's Cafe at 6.30 pm....

Carrying the guitar, My laptop, and a mildly heavy bag, I trudge throughout Holland and Bouna Vista.

Don't wanna talk about it. Am even tired thinking about it. Anyway...School starts tomorrow. Booo!! HAhaz...W54B huh? Hope I get alot of great classmatey! And...I get to take to tall Escalator!! Wooohooo!

Cool? Cool Right?

Josiah Blog is real funny...still got Jokes of the day...diao....

Friday, September 14, 2007

Amazing Race

Amazing Race

Woohoo! Third over night event! I've survive!!!

Stupid dog....just bite me without reason. It'll pay for that.

Oh!! On the day of the Amazing race was Elena's Birthday! It was Timonthy's birthday on The BB's Night Tour. Cool huh?

My station Point Breaker is a major and tedious station. Having 4 different games in one station. Giving an oportunity for teams to catch up or fall back.

I had loads of fun and I hope that the same can be spoken for my participants.Don did a fantastic job planning this. Weee!! But Josiah did not buy extra Durians...T-T I WANT DURIANS!!! WAHHHHHHHH!!

Kidding.

CE was scary... I did not prepare for it and was rather shock when I have to facilitate but praise be to God that it did not end badly.

Oh ya! Wondered why I change blogskin? Because someone I know had the same blogskin! Nooooo!! I hate people who has personal identical things with me!So ...I change....Miss that skin....sobs....

Arghh...so many blood ...stupid dog......

Okkk!! Amazing race ended well! With alot of funny and fantastic teams. The best team I saw? Elena's team. This is the craziest team. Totally.

Oh..ya! Something freaky happened! I was looking for the toliet. For one in Plazs Singapura in the middle of the night. 2nd Floor. There is two pre-entrances ...One to the male toliet and one to the female toilet.I entered the male one. I saw that it leads to the female toilet. Puzzled I checked hmmm...I did not walk wrongly. Then I entered by the female pre-entrance. Then I saw excess to both toilet.A little unnerved, I proceed to finish what I needed to do. While haeding out, I saw that the pre-entrance is actually an entrance with the pillar in between. But strangely, I remembered that each was a straight path when I entered. Walls on both sides...and no pillar. Freaky.

Oh ya...My holidays are ending . I've finished the intense 3 week for God. It's beeing tougbh But I want to thank a group of people for being a great support throughout this 3 weeks of trial!

Fengnan
Steffi
Jacquerline
Joy
Weisheng
Desmond
Sunny

This group of people has been great support for me. Played crucial roles in helping me to hold on. Wanted to say a huge thank you! May God bless you for the the love you show. =]

I'm still bleeding....right.....just need my mom to not notice ten I'll attack the dog.... Grrrrr...stupid dog. So ugly.

Oh....We ate in Macs in the morning.... The youths. It was fun to an extent.The younger male youths keep playing with this duel master cards....fun meh? Hahaz....

Situation ended up with only Carrie and me in the Macdonald. The rest had to leave but Carrie's mom and dad is fetching Carrie. So as a MAN, I waited with the lady. She slept till her mommy come....I read a bit of the word of God...realised that I cannot stay awake, decides also to sleep hahhaz....TillI woke up and saw Carrie's mom and dad at the doors of Mac. 6th Sense...hahaz.

I was intending to go home when they offered to give me a ride home. So nice! That was like out of the way for them.Nice people!

Current condition?
I wasn't feeling real tired. I allowed Carrie's family drop in at the petrol station although there is a nearer drop. I wanted to push myself even more.My skin dried, tight and to a certain extent scalely wasn't really a good sign. Something had developed in me. There is this void that pulls everything inside of me together.I felt as if I'm crushed from within. It was the reason I wanted a long staircase to climb. As I climb and exert myself, the pull strengthed. Kind of painful but I pushed on. Annoyed at this recent developement.

Slept from 9am to 1pm. Feeling alot better now! Yeah!

Going home soon tooo! Wee!

P.S: I'm sexier than Christopher.

Thursday, September 13, 2007

On the Cross

On the Cross

I have wondered....How does Jesus feel on the Cross?

What was the most painful thing He felt?

Was it the nails....?
Was it the wounds of the beatings and scourging?
Was it the crown of thorns?
Was it the suffocating pain of being on the crucified?
Was it the thrist?
The sun?
The Shame?
Was it all this?
Or a heartfelt pain of seeing His loved ones so steeped in sin?

"Here is your king," Pilate said to the Jews.
15But they shouted, "Take him away! Take him away! Crucify him!" "Shall I crucify your king?" Pilate asked. "We have no king but Caesar," the chief priests answered.
16Finally Pilate handed him over to them to be crucified.

This passage always hit me strongly.
It's real painful to read such a passage..Let me rephrase it.

"Here is your lover," loved one's enemy said to the loved ones. 15But loved ones shouted, "Take him away! Take him away! Crucify him!" "Shall I crucify your lover?" loved one's enemy asked. "We have no lover but loved one's oppressor," the senior loved ones answered. 16Finally loved one's enemy handed lover over to loved ones to be crucified.

That's the painful irony each time I read it.

I realise too...that it is also happening nowadays. Each time we christians put something before God. Especially when our non christian friends tell us that it is wrong. We being silly did not stop but continue....and the stumble the lost sheeps.

Sad huh?

Anyway there is this weird person who message me recently. At first looking for a guy and then a massage parlour... then saying some weird stiff about carey giving him/her wrong number.

God gave me an idea to share the Gospel through sms. I tried by sending do you know about Jesus? Who died for you.

Replied that the person is not a catholic but an red indian. Kind of absurd.. But I shared the Gospel in my second message. Person yet to reply. I feel kind of sorry for this person. He/her is so trapped by sexual vices (send some sick message too) . I hope that person consider Jesus and and turn to the light.

Prayer List!

CARRIE'S SICK!
Pray for her recovery!

Friend
Her Career. That she'll improve in her skills. Her walk with God too!

Zhen Xiong
Thanksgiving! QT! He is reading the bible more regularly le!
Pray that He's continue to do so.

Desmond, Weisheng, Sunny, Yu Ki
Growth in God .

Friend
Studies

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Money Money Money

Money Money Money

Hmmm...A word I detest since young. A word that cause so much pain yet I'll need to hold on on it.

People can be really insensitive and tactless at times. Especially people close to you. Or maybe I'm just more sensitive to people who are close to me.

My mom told me this morning that I need not buy presents for someone on their birthday since I am not working. Reason: I told her about Stacia's birthday and she wondered if I got her a birthday present. My answer is this. I never intended to get her a present. Althrough I thought about it and wished I could. A plain card is all I can afford I said.

Then she said that her friend's two sons, are very good to their mom. They always got their mom a present every year. She claimed tht we did not. Which is false. We did . We did also at a huge price. Those two "fantastic" children shared money to buy their mom a gift. My brother and me each brought her a present.Yeah...those animal saved money to buy her a gift. Like we didn't, we called to the guan yin ma which drop money.

This is ridiculus lor. We had so much difficultly in getting her a gift is because we have no money to even save. Blame us huh? Dad and you can't even hold a stupid family together. You know how hard it is to swallow all your thoughtless comments and not commenting on how it is all your fault all along? Yeah you say they are not well to do. They reduce what they it just to get theire mom a present. You wanna know about us? AT LEAST FOR ME, I STARVE ALL YEAR ROUND, JUST THAT YOU CAN HAVE MORE MONEY TO ENJOY YOURSELF! JUST SO THAT BOTH DAD AND YOU HAVE FOOD ON YOUR TABLE!

What best...with all these starving, i'll probably have given you all more money than those two small fries can every dream of giving combined. That is why, getting a stupid present is hard. That is why we have nothing but our hearts to give. Neither have we ask for anything but your hearts.

Childish Parents...

My heart aches each time i see a complete family. THAT is also why I can't stand people who jump into relationships for fun, for feelings, for any other stupid reason other than God. All cared about themselves but the other party. All just want that intimate closeness. Stupid. Relationships and Marriage was never totally about intimate closeness. Romance? A sick excuse for people who are lonely.

Great ..... my fantastic friend got herself another boyfriend. Now...that's number 23? Great! 5 more than her actual age. What a break through.

Wahhh..the best thing is this...that girl still thinks that she's done nothing wrong. Sometimes I wonder... are some people born with sucidal stupidity? Yuck...Disgusting....I cannot imagine having so many exes...don't you feel unclean and wasted? Sick.

Ok!! Less of those negative stuff. My brother Jacob...sent me something of interest.
Something for people who serve serve serve ....without knowing a reason to serve. Oh ya...don't give me the serve God cos I love God thingy or serve God because God loves me thingy. Cause, if you cannot give a deeper answer than that, you probably don't have a reason to serve...at least you'll be bluffing yourselves . Guess what...you probably won't last long too.

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Hi everyone,

Something for you below, a short article with a vast measure of wisdom. A timely reminder for all of us who are actively serving Him not to “measure our spiritual maturity by the load we carry, rather than the freedom we enjoy”.

The school holiday is ending very soon. Let’s not be caught up by the activities we are doing or planning, but set aside quality time this week to spend with God in anticipation that He will tell you something. You may ask Him the following questions during your quiet time, and remember to wait and listen:
1. What are the things about me that please You?
2. What are the things about me that hurt You?
3. What are the games You would like to play with me? (yes, He’s obsessed with little kids… you and I… Matthew 18:3, 19:14)
4. What do You think of me?

I believe God will speak intimately to you as you take time to wait on Him. In the coming semester, as we go about the business of tending our brothers’ and sisters’ vineyards, please don’t forget to tend our own.

Praying for you…

His love & mine,
Jacob

How healthy is your vineyard?by Buddy Owens

Not long ago I had two separate conversations with two different people who said the same thing. One is a man, the other is a woman. One is Presbyterian, the other is Assemblies of God. They each were worship leaders in churches that were experiencing great renewal. And they each said to me: “I wish what is happening in my church was happening in my life.” Sad to say, their sentiment is not uncommon in the ministry.

In Song of Songs 1:6, the beloved laments: “My brothers have made me tend their vineyards, but I have neglected my own.” Her words ring so true, and remind me of my two friends – and of myself.

If I’m not careful, the joy of service turns so easily into the drudgery of duty, and before I know it, I have replaced intimacy with responsibility. I fill my life with activities when God wants to fill it with himself. More meetings, more projects, more hours spent at work serving my master. All of these things are worthy of my time and effort. But as I learned from the Parable of the Prodigal, God is not looking for servants. He is looking for sons who will join him in the family business.

The frustration mounts. The emptiness deepens. I become restless and dissatisfied. I occupy myself with more activity – but that’s just digging the hole deeper. Like the older brother in Jesus’ parable who cried out, All these years I have been slaving for you!, my “being” is soon overshadowed by my “doing.”

When I center my spiritual identity on the work of the ministry rather than centering myself in the presence of the Father, my passions change. My old passion for God is replaced by a new passion for service. Its rewards are more measurable and often more gratifying: acclaim, a sense of achievement and importance. I feed this new passion, and by doing so, starve the old one. The result is that I begin to measure my spiritual maturity by the load I carry rather than the freedom I enjoy.

But when religious activity takes the place of spiritual intimacy, my heart begins to harden and I end up – as the beloved lamented – having spent my energies tending my brothers’ vineyards while my own vineyard has been neglected. The result is burnout, jealousy for the spiritual intimacy that others experience, and a longing for a taste from the spiritual feast that others have enjoyed at Jesus’ feet while I was slaving away in the kitchen.

I justify my negligence with a Martha mentality that if someone else isn’t working as hard as I am, then what they need is a good swift kick in the pants from the Lord – when what I really want is to be sitting at Jesus’ feet myself. The fear is that if I sit at his feet, nothing will get done. But the truth is that if I don’t sit at his feet, nothing I do will matter in the long run. Like my two friends, I will miss out on the blessing of God’s presence, and God will miss out on the pleasure of my company.

Sounds audacious, doesn’t it? That God would miss out on the pleasure of anybody’s company? But think about this: Why would God invite you into his presence if he didn’t want to be in yours? He says, "Come to me, all you who are weary and heavy laden" (Matt. 11:28), and "Come to me that your soul may live, and I will make an everlasting covenant with you" (Isa. 55:3). Is his invitation only for our benefit, or is it also somehow for God’s benefit? After all, the Bible says, “The Lord delights in those who fear him” (Ps. 147:11).

The dilemma is this: the “God-shaped void” that Pascal wrote about does not disappear. It gets larger. It’s an appetite that, once awakened, grows into an all-consuming passion. We cannot get enough of God’s presence because God continually makes more room for himself. He expands his sphere of influence with each encounter. Our capacity for true spiritual fulfillment enlarges with every fulfilling experience, until we reach the place where we say with the psalmist: “My heart and my flesh cry out for the living God…Better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere” (Ps. 84:2, 10).

It is then that we are ready for ministry because we are driven not by our talents, or our need for recognition, or even our sense of duty, but by our desperation for more of God and his glory.
The question I must ask is: What pleasure am I denying myself, and God for that matter, by allowing other, lesser pursuits to occupy my time? What God-encounters am I missing?
Some of our dearest friends whom we love the most live 10 minutes away, but we see them only once or twice a year. Why? Because there is always something else: something pressing, something necessary, something other. So the friendship gets moved to the back-burner. After all, they’re only 10 minutes away – there will be other times. But you and I know that those other times grow fewer and farther between. And we suffer the loss of joy-filled moments that could have been.

How many moments have I missed with the Father because something else was more pressing? How many memories will never be created? How many appointments with God have I missed because “something came up”?

So let me ask you a couple of questions: When was the last time you talked to God, not because you needed something, but simply out of friendship? When was the last time you spent time in the Word, not for the sake of public ministry, but for the sake of personal renewal? What is your identity in Christ? Do you see yourself as a servant working for your master, or as a son working with your father? Your point of view will make all the difference in the world.

As you go about the business of tending your brothers’ vineyards this week, don’t forget to tend your own.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY STACIA!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STACIA!

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Wow...Felica is pretty resourceful! Got this! Rather Cool.

See for yourself! Be encouraged!

Shared the Gospel today. Met the usual misled people. God spiced things up on my last contact.
He gave me a Mormon. Mormon = Cult. Great. I'm stuck. I don't know how to share to a cultist that base it's belief on Christ. Didn't know their religon much...so cannot share....sad. Invited them for insommia. Hoped that the people in there can do a better job.

Met Stacy and Stacia. Went to their home. It's.....HUMONGOUS!!!!
It can easily be 2.5 times larger than my home. That is like so unfair!!!

Stacy and Stacia still a fun bunch! Need to spend more time with people like them. I realise that my church ain't really loving enough. Especially the youths. Fun is fun la....when you are with the fun and cliqued people. I notice a few not cliqued people. Often wonder how to get them in.
Hmmmmm......

Oh ya!!
Stacy and Stacia has Sore eyes...It seems to be able to spread...weird...how? Lol....Stanford got it too...pooor thing.I told them I'm strong...but now eyes itchy le.... nevermind....I'm really strong..hahahaz.

I intended it to be a short visit but I ended up eating with them and celebrating Stacia's birthday. Forgot today is 11 September. LoL! I wondered why I stayed so long....I guess it must have been the longings of friendship and people to chat with. To have so many people under one roof is really nice.

Chat with Stacy's mom. I had fun time sharing. I love talking to adults. They are like so much more mature. Can discuss deeper stuffs with them plus! They'll know what is usually more important. They rarely talk about the truely childish gossips of teenagers.

Aiya...I need more time....no time to blog. People...work...all takes up my time. So irritating. I need quiet time with God too..So late le...My mind is like so blocked.

Arghhh...so many interesting events are not typed down. Super annoying. Need more time mann....

Sunday, September 09, 2007

A Christian Nick

A Christian

This ..my people....is a MSN nick of a person who claimed to be a Christian.
FUCK LA! KNN! SOMEONE JUSTED CHEATED MY 50 BUCKS! FUCK OFF MAN!

That Christian's personal Nick
Gracious Father indeed you ARE wonderful Lord!

Right....no wonder non christians keep telling me that christians are very fake.

I decide to look around for more...

Nick :love is not always black and white
Personal Message :aqilahorethbtezuhayrabdullah <3 i don't know how to describe you,fucktard

Hmmm....I just did a look thru....something struck me....

Okok! Let's list down the amount of really God Glorifying Nicks!

From My Crusade List (30 ppl)

Nick: For You alone are great in power, You alone are my strong tower
Personal Message: Jesus You're the reason, I'm kneeling again at Your throne. Where would I be without You? Here in my life, here in my life

Nick: a thankful me

Nick: phil.... one heart, one mind, but all for You...]

Personal Message: ...suffering?!?... pause to pray for the world now... http://campus.sccc.org.sg/gen12ii... some pointers to pray on..

Nick: Why does it take so much for women to believe that they are beautiful just as they are
Personal Message: when would we realize others' words and attention don't make us more beautiful than we already are?

Nick: anyone can cook!!!
Personal Message: except me... thank God for 24-hr fast food outlets

Nick: [Better to be crippled in body than corrupted in mind]
Personal Message: I will worship you for who you are!!!!

Personal Message: JoB 32:8

Personal Message: Romans8:1, Romans 8;37

Nick: - really love my girls more and more each day!!!!!!!!
Personal Message: Living a Prayerful life is veri important!!!

Nick: in faith and love (Galatians 5:6) Renew, Restore, Reconcile
Personal Message: Habakkuk 3:2 - LORD, I have heard of Your fame; I stand in awe of Your deeds... Renew them in our day... in wrath remember mercy.

Personal Message: "God's work done in God's way will never lack God's supplies."

Nick: Be BOLD to love
Personal Message: Thank you Jesus for everything.

Hmmm.... Now for SYFC Contacts ( 45 Ppl)

3 Advertised Evangelistic Event

Nick: Royalhood [ Ambassador of Christ ]

Nick:I place my trust

Nick:LL = Learning to Love...
Personal Message:Smile on God's face... this is all i want... not praises fr man, not rewards fr pple...

Nick:-TestifyToLove

Nick:Fill me...Fill me...with purpose and passion
Personal Message: Roms 13:8

Nick: Keep me growing till I die
Personal Message: You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail.

Personal Message: WWJD, Go and Do Likewise

Personal Message: mY Saviour laid His life 4 me.

Nick: Take my 2 fish and 5 loaves of bread

Nick: We love because he first loved us
Personal Message: Everything was done so you would come...

Now...My Church..(64 Christians)

Nick: The spirit so willing but the flesh so weak...

Nick: God is the Potter, Not Harry

Personal Message: who am i : "what is man that you are mindful of him"

Nick: Make EVERY EFFORT to do what leads to peace & to mutual edification."
Personal Message: Luke 13:24

Nick: "Another step into life's unknown, keep me safe my Lord as i falter"

++++++

Hmmm.....Results?
Crusade: 13/30
SYFC: 13/45
My Church: 5/64

Says alot about God's name being glorified on MSN.
Oh..if you try to use this to prove which group is more holy, I suggest you don't try.
This is a test to see how nicks are used to glorify God. There are more than just nicks that can be used to glorify God in MSN. ALOT MORE...But I won't share unless asked. xp

Hmmm.... Think Think Think.....

Randomess

Yu Ki 's third post of today.

No mood to blog that's why splintered.

Saw Steffi's Bloggy....

heeheee
Yu ki....u will shy meh? don't bluff leh.. haha.. just kidding ah.. just kidding.. :D

But really, if u feel like pulling ur hair out anytime, don't pull mine or any other's, but can share ur problems, yeah? i promise u won't turn into a sister, but u'll have a sister's point of view! :D

now to go eat my dinner, & cont mugging!THE PRELIMS & THE As ROCKKKKKK!!!!!

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Alrighty...someone else wrote about me and he is real nice. Hahaz. Thanks Bro but for your sake I'll not reveal you. Although you seems quite abusive with the handcuff senario. Wahahahaz.

My answer to Steffy! (Must still read my blog hor!)
I wasn't bluffing I was Kidding. I like the word kidding but I find it weird to use with you around...cos....someone close to you is called by that without the "ding"

If I have prayer requests, I'll message out. =] Thanks. Don't worry about the hair part. My mom's a hairdresser...so I should be able to to tear out nice hairdos...no need hairspary either.. hahaz ~~ Just a Joking (Learned from friend; He's my Angel)

I don't wanna turn into a sister BUT I want to know sister's points of view.

And...Good to see that you have a positive attitude in approaching your Examinations! Rock on k?

Gonna Share Gospel tml....But I don't feel Like SHARING!!! ARGGHHHH!!! Sharing to strangers is easier to Friends...Raaaawwwwgagagagaga........ Weird huh? You are not willing to give up your friendships to see you friend in heaven. Hmmm..Yu Ki ah Yu Ki....How ? How? Carmen is Calling sooon.....But I feel so much like slacking......

Mew....

Your Score: The Liberated Lover

72% partner focus, 57% aggressiveness, 60% adventurousness

Based on the results of this test, it is highly likely that:

You prefer your romance and love to wild and daring rather than typical or boring, you would rather pursue than be pursued and, when it comes to physical love, your satisfaction comes more from providing a wonderful time to your partner than simply seeking your own.

This places you in the Lover Style of: The Liberated Lover.

The Liberated Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and forms the kind of free-thinking, sexually-exciting, self-confident lover that society once condemned but that a liberal-mind cherishes and exults. The Liberated Lover is a treasure to find, though it can sometimes be difficult to do so because they are often already engaged in relationships or are in high-demand if "in the market."

In terms of physical love, the Liberated Lover is possibly the most thrilling and demanding of all, with the one potential drawback being that it is possible to feel 'overmatched' at times by their prowess and selfless giving. Given trust and understanding, and the right lover, the Liberated Lover can be a delight in bed.

Best Compatibility can probably be found with: The Exotic Lover (most of all) or the Carnal Lover, or the Suave Lover.

Congratulations!

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on partner focus

You scored higher than 99% on aggressiveness

You scored higher than 99% on adventurousness

Wow.....Coool! I"M HOT!!!

Wahahahahhahaz!

Burning Babehh!!

Even if it's 1% for all I'll still trust God for my relationship. Now even more so. Since I'm so hot. HAhahaz!!

SO Sorry...I'm high le.

Insommiac

Insommiac

Let's begin with what happened today. =]

I've just gotten $25!! Woohoo! I got it from a milk testing survey!

Thanks Aunty Irene!

The trip was fun! I was with Gladys and her family. She seems to have a really nice family. A real funny mom and a real stone dad that does funny things at times.Her siblings are really fun too! I know that Eunice grow violent. Lol. Gladys claimed it to be Ivan's fault. HAhaz...lol...Ivan Violent? Nah..Nice Guy.

Gladys is ever fun! HAhaz....It's really nice to go out with them. I hear they eat together too! Go to their cousin's house ..play and have fun. I wished I had such a dynamic family too! Aww.....

Hmmm...Da Dilly Dum Dum

Isommia Event.
My 2nd overnight event of my three weeks holiday. I'm still alive. Body a bit weakened but am survivng. Next week....Will be my 3rd over night event. God has sustained me. Gonna ask Him to sustain me for school when School reopens...My grades are horrible...I've got B+,B+,B+ and B. First time I've gotten a B. Sadnesss.....If I don't work hard, I'm going to end up with a GPA lower than 3.5... I'm so unnerved.

Anyway..Insommia was really sad
I had loads of Fun . Shared the Gospel. Heard many things....that sadden me.So many ways Satan can bond people and prevent them from receiving the Gospel.

Honestly speaking ...do you look for truth by looking for truth ? I have someone bonded in muslim because he says that muslim is influential and that is how he is brought up. I was like...hmmm....if you know the truth...won't you instead of sticking with traditions, learn the truth then enlighten those entangled too?

So sadd sia....Some another is a catholic.says he 'll do God's will if God tells him. I was wondering how do you know God's will if you don't find Him or listen to him. God is just like a servant to him. Nothing wrong with asking for money, love and material stuff...but if that is the only thing that you talk about, does it show that you love God? I asked him do you treat God as you would want to treat your girlfriend. He has no answer.

It's sad lor...totally.

aiya....Hmmm.....

Shared alot with Carrie yesterday.Hmm...Can she be trusted? Noisy Dino...Wahhahahaz......

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Bigger Boat

Bigger Boat

Hey!! Got money to eat! So happy.

Did Street Evangelism at Vivo City today! Shared gospel to two person.

A SP third Year and a Saint Andrew Sec Student!

So blessed.

Ronald my partner and group member did his first evangelism. It was a blast! God used me to train him on the way to Vivo! I'm so Gan Tong. Hees. Han Yu Pin Yin.

The first guy was kind of resistant. He kept claiming that God is too strong (too Black and White). Well...God is sovereign. I guess people will have trouble trying to grasp that.

The second guy is pretty open. Shared His views and we even exchange contacts. Might meet him for basket ball . Lol. He is interested in the Gospel! I was like so happy.

Anyway, I am given two stories again today.

Life is like Ice Cream
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

Who makes decors Ice Cream before?

There are ice creams decor competitions. It's quite an happening thing for Ice Cream lovers.
The peanut dressings , chocolate powder , colourful chocolate grains etc etc.

And Ice cream decor is something you have to do fast. Because, as you are decorating your ice cream, it's melting.

You cannot say to the ice cream :"wait while I decor you."

Life is like Ice Creams . You spent the whole time decorating it with achievements, career, love, good deeds , anything , everything. In the end , after it melted. What have you left? What have you created?

Book of Ecclesiastes

A book in the bible famous for declaring that everything is meaningless.

I believe...Sometimes, one have to look beyond this life ; into what comes after life.

Jesus walked earth about 2007 years ago. He claimed to be God and boldly declares that other then through Him, none can recieve Eternal Life. He too warned that those who failed to come to Him will surely be rejected by God. I think it is a good thing to consider this Jesus's claims. Because, if He is really the son of God and no one comes to God accept through Him, then it is a huge issue we are talking about. Your Life after Death.

It's no laughing matter. Your Life is a drop in the whole of eternity but your eternity depends on your decision during that drop of time. Be wise. Look beyond Decoring Ice creams. If you want the Decors to last.

Bigger Boat
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I loved this illustration. It's a huge slap slap to all Christians...especially to those really comfortable ones not seeing the need to preach the Gospel.

A certain ship named princess something...I forgot le. Sunk. Hit a rock on a foggy day.An tragic event. Many Died.

An Account at the court for the two ferry men on duty at the day of sinking.

1st man
>>>>>>>
Jugde:What were you doing at XX.XX time?
Man:I was tying up my ferry and preparing to go home, eat with my family and rest.

Jugde: Did you hear a loud sound?
Man: I did.But I was really tired. I had a long day and I wanted to go home to be with my wife and children . Dinner was prepared.

Jugde:But did you hear a loud sound?
Man: yes.

2nd Man
<<<<<<<<
Jugde:What were you doing at XX.XX time?
Man:I was tying up my ferry and preparing to go home, eat with my family and rest.

Jugde: Did you hear a loud sound?
Man: I did. I untied my ferry immediately and went to investigate. It was really foggy so I followed the sounds.Then I saw lots of people in the water drowning/ kicking and swimming. The Ship Princess something was sinking. I hurried to try my best to rescue the people. I pulled them to my ferry. It was a small one and it can only carry around 8 person. I tried to squeeze in as many. But it cannot take more than 10 or it'll sink. Then I rush back to shore . I then return to get more of the victims. When my ferry was full and i needed to return to shore , there are always people screaming at me to let them in because they might not survive the next time I return. I felt so bad leaving them behind. I felt so bad turning them down. But My ferry could not carry more or it'll sink. These voices I often won't hear again when I returned. I kept doing this till I hear no sound when I return to the site. When all of them are dead. I tried my best to save as many as I could.

The man was sobbing uncontrollably.

Man: I cried out to God...A Bigger Boat...A Bigger Boat. I need a bigger boat that can carry more.

I'll change this story to a christian view.

Jugdement Day...
^^^^^^^^^^^^^
It's judgement Day. God sat on His huge white throne. Many books are opened and the book of life is there. The dead were judged according to what they have done as recorded in the books. ( Rev 20:11-14)

Christian1
>>>>>>>>

God:What have you done during your life.
Christian1:I was busy preparing to meet you in heaven. I'm also supporting my family and achieving much in my career.

God: Did you know that there are people around you who need to know me.
Christian 1: I do. But I was really busy. My career or studies might be jeprodised if I spent time to share the gospel. I might lose my friends too! I need my job to support my family. Church, Bible studies....I'm a real busy man.

God: But did you know that there are people around you who need to know me.
Christian 1: Yes..

Christian 2
<<<<<<<<<
God:What have you done during your life.
Christian 2:I was busy preparing to meet you in heaven. I'm also supporting my family and achieving much in my career.

God: Did you know that there are people around you who need to know me.
Christian 2: I do. I tried my best to reach out to them. It was difficult. Project datelines, Career and family. I set aside time each day to share the gospel near shopping centres. I shared with the people i sit with , eat with and go out with. I just cannot share to everybody. I felt so bad when I did not have to time to share to gospel with those who need it so much. Often the next day, I'll never see them again. I shared and shared till the day I died.

Christian 2 sobbing uncontollably.

Christian2 : I need more christian brothers and sisters to share the Gospel. With 1 or 2 more brother and sister in Christ, more of the lost could have been saved.(Matthew 9:37-38)

Get the idea?
I want to share a few verses. And I plead Christains yes..those that are saved. Those that need not worry about where you go after you die. TO make a decision to be a light to the lost.

2 Corinthians 5:17-21
17So if anyone is in Christ, there is a new creation: everything old has passed away; see, everything has become new!
18All this is from God, who reconciled us to himself through Christ, and has given us the ministry of reconciliation;
19that is, in Christ God was reconciling the world to himself,* not counting their trespasses against them, and entrusting the message of reconciliation to us.
20So we are ambassadors for Christ, since God is making his appeal through us; we entreat you on behalf of Christ, be reconciled to God.
21For our sake he made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

We were saved to save. We are the messengers of hope to the lost. Light to darkness.

John 9:4
4I must work the works of him that sent me, while it is day: the night cometh, when no man can work.

It's urgent. There will come a day where by you can no longer share the gospel. This work in the verse is sharing the gospel and discipleship. It's the only work of eternal value that cannot be done when "night comes". Your night comes when you die , a non believer's night comes when he or she die. We cannot assume that this night will be on the day of jugdement. When a non believer dies, you cannot share the gospel to him or her any more. You don't know everyone's night. So While it's day! While both are alive and kicking, Share the gospel. Night comes in a little while and then...no work can be done....you cannot share the gospel anymore....

It's scary huh? We Christians are entrusted with an important task. An important work. Every minute, people are going to hell. The question is this. Are you willing to depopulate hell?

John 15:12-13
12This is my commandment, That ye love one another, as I have loved you.
13Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.

Your friends...friends who have not received Christ. Are you willing to obey the command to love? Are you loving enough to lay down your life?

Labels: Life is like a Boat..More Boats more saved.

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Roach Mania

Roach Mania

Hey! GUESS WHAT I SAW A FEW DAYS AGO????

A Cockroach Massacre!

Hundreds....close to literal . Hundreds of cockroach carcasses littled the grounds of red hill. Sick? Plain Sick. The smell of insecticide is strong too. Well...glad I ain't a cockroach.

Beats the point. It's just plain disgusting. I had to side step here and there to go and return from buying food. I was half expecting cockroach carcasses in my food when I tried to eat them.

That's not all! I'm now a little afraid of eating pork. I read some information on pork while having a meal of Char Siew and Roasted Meat Rice. Yeah...Both Char Siew and Roasted Meat is Pork. So I had the unpleasant surprise while enjoying the unpleasant surprise. Marvelous huh?

Research yourself. It's sick. Sick days hahaz. Friend comforted me by telling me it depends on what they feed the pig. So the views I research on might have been bias.I decide still to refrain at best from consuming pork. Hees...I'm gonna be Elena the Fishy Veggie Eliminator.
wahaha!

I'm still ALIVE!! Thank God.
Wanna know why? See Monday, August 27, 2007 / 3:04 AM Post BANKAI TIME!
Oh...It's not updated. I'm currently busier. WoooHooo!!
I was telling my Bros and Siss in SYFC that 90% of my brain cells are dead. Only 10% is left working. And that 10% is the 10% I've given to God. SHOULD Have given more. Hahahaz.

I'm also mewing quite alot. I got addicted to it.Some Crusade Stuff...Wahaha! WanTeng! I heard you are addicted too! Lol. I reasoned that I'm a consitpated Kitty. So I mewed Like a consitpated Kitty. Wahahaz. Annoying.

Oh ya...This is a cool term.

tELL tHE tRUTH

Christ was crucified between tow robbers who were crucified too!
ttt
Cool Huh? Christ is the Truth. Lol.

I heard two sharings today. Really nice sharing. I'm sacrificing my sleep so that you can be edified! So I really hope you are edified.

Live tale 1

A Staff from SYFC used to go to the beach at certain sundays to share the gospel when she was young.

One particular sunday. She approach a man to share the gospel with him. He seems nice and listened to her.However, he stopped her while she was sharing halfway. He commented her that she looked intelligent. He also commented her that he can tell that she is an intelligent lady by the way she speaks.

Then he dropped the bomb. He said: "But I cannot understand how an intelligent lady can say such a stupid thing." That staff was shocked. The man said : " How can God became Man? How can God Die? How can you say such a stupid thing?"

The Staff was shocked. She was speechless. She prayed silently in her heart. Asking God to help. Telling God that she cannot remain silent...for that man's sake and she'll need God to put words to her mouth. God was swift. And she gave the answer .

"Yes. You are Right. You are very Right. God did a very stupid thing. This shows how much God loves us. He loved us so much that He did such stupid things. Like coming as a man and then dying for us."

The man was speechless. The staff later went to a corner to cry and then worshipped. God just showed her....How much He had loved her and those around her.

Loved her enough to do such stupid things.

Life Story 2

A Lady friend of a Staff from SYFC lived in Canada. It's a routine that she drove to the supermart. Ran in got her things and then hurried out .

One day as usual, she parked outside the supermart, got out and into the mart . Got her things then back to her car.

She drove to the highway intending on returning home. Now Canada is big. There are towns and the the high ways connects town to town. The high ways are usually lonely. She drove as usual towards her home. The journey is home. After driving for a while, she realised that there is a huge yellow delivery truck driving very closely behind her.

Annoyed she drove faster. So did the truck driver. She changed lanes. The driver did the same and tailed her. After switching lanes for a while, she could not take it. She drove off the high way.Now, Canadian highways are different form Singapore highways. You don't get to acess it easily. Once you leave, you'll head straight to another town. But she did it just to get rid of the annoying driver. She thought she lost him.

Relieved, she decided to find her way back to the highway. But then, she spied the yellow delivery truck behing her again. This time , annoyance changed to fear. This driver is pursuing her.

She's a fast thinker. So she heads straight to the nearest petrol station. trusting that it will bring her security as there are people there.She reached and ran out. Calling for help. For the Truck drove in after her. A Man leaped from the yellow truck, heads straight to the back seat of her car, opens the door and pulled out a man hiding in her car.

In canada you have more trust than singapore. A short trip into the supermarket will not prompt you to lock your car. The man hiding her car must have been watching her for a long time. He could have been her potential robber, rapist or murderer. The truck driver is in a high vehicle. He is able to look down and saw the man hiding in the ladies's car. He had compassion for her and places his job on the risk. Followed her just to ensure her saftey.

The lady. Thought her rescuer was the enemy and continued to run from him. She kept running with her potential killer from her rescuer.

Sometime I felt that sharing the gospel is like that . You wanted so much to save that person. you know that they are in terrible danger. But they kept running and carrying the danger with them. The question will come....will you love them enough to contiune to pursue them? Will you risk your job, friendship, studies, carrer, life for them?

In John 15:1 it says
13 Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.

You don't literally die for your friend but what do you do to show love. Are you willing to put others before self.

Nate. One of the 5 missionaries who died reaching out to the Wandaoni said this when asked will he shoot the indians when they attacked.
" No ...We can't shoot the Indians. We are ready for heaven . They are not." Christians....Will you die for you friends? Will you put your life, career, studies, friendships , things that matters alot to you on the line so that you friends can be saved?

It's 12.25 Now.....Gotta wake up at 7.....Awww....not enough sleep....No money for food too..Let's see how God provides for tomorrow! I'm going to share the Gospel to the people at the streets tomorrow! Wooohoooo!!

Daniel Lee....You were wrong....I did not burned out like you. I did not end up like you . I grew stronger...I grown to love God more and to see Him more real each day. It's because I relied on God...While you...relied on yourself.....I do dearly wished that you will come back to God. It's 3-4 years now...God really loved you.

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Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Love?

Love?

Love....What is love?

Many people have many different answer but I believe there is an absolute right answer. I believe in absolutes. This is a world of absolute. Truth is absolute. That is why it is so painful . That is why many people greyed truth from black and white to corrupted shades.

People loves to commend about there is no absolute truth. Truth is define by the person himself or herself. Truth is shaped by the believer. My Truth is different from your truth. Therefore, truth cannot ba absolute. In fact nothing is....

Are you absolutely sure?

Absolutely sure that truth is not absolute?

Silly I must say. You have already made an absolute statement. Truth is absolute.

Be a man and take it like a man. Like how man was made to be in the beginning. For God. God's words are truth. That won't change no matter how you do not believe it. A watch is a watch . It is not a spoon. No matter how many time you chant spoon at it, it'll remain as a spoon. That's logic.

Some smart guy will probably say. What if to that person spoon is really a watch? What if from young that is what he/she is taught? That a watch is called a spoon? This brings us back to God again. The creator. The creator made a watch a watch and name it a watch. He made the spoon a spoon and name it spoon. You can call the watch a spoon but that does change the fact that it is a watch . You are just being perverse if the truth is told to you and you still do not accept it.

Here's some truth for you to consider.

1) God created Heaven and Earth and everything in it.
~ includes man and all creation.
2) Man Sin and was separated from God
~ The Perfect God cannot stand sin(imperfection)
~ Like no sane and righteous person can stand evil. ( Murder, Rape, theft, Etc)
3) There is Punishment and Judgement for Sin
~ You should be well aquainted with this.
4) God loved us enough to take the punishment upon Himself
~ God walked earth as Jesus to die for our sins.
~ Rose from the Dead on the third day . Showing victory over death that we too may be raised.
5) God was clear that Jesus was the Way, the Truth and the Life. No one comes to Him except through Jesus.
~ You have to know Jesus and follow Him.
~ Your life must change.

Many people called Christians arrogant for firmly stating that Jesus is the only Way , Truth and Life. In short, the only way to heaven. But wait a minute, if you are trapped in a building on fire, you ain't going to argue with the fireman that he is being arrogant claiming to be the only way to safety. No...you jump at him. You want to be saved. Same thing. Go provided a way. You don't go around looking for another way . You take the only way.

Anyway. How did I end up talking about this? Back to today's topic .

LOVE!

Love is
1) Intelligent
2) Willingness
3) To Do
4) What is best
5) For the other person

Love is intelligent. It is not blind. That is the last thing it is.
It is willingness to do what is best. What is best? Read your bible. The world says if you love someone, the best thing you can do is to have sex or give all your money or all your time or all your attention. But take a sec. Think through each of that. What does that leads you to? Will it really be a happy ending? Is that really love? Will it really benefit the other party? Is it about self or your partner? All these things comes as a part of love. But the deceiver who deceives and destroy has distort love by making the part a whole.

Ok. An example. What is the best way and most undetectable way of lying? Yes. To tell parts of the truth and leave out the part you do not want people to hear.

In fact it is such a common way of deceiving people that, people don't think that they are lying wen they do it. It's just not telling the whole truth right? But look in your heart. What was your objective when you did that? It is to decieve so that the other party do not find out. How then can you say that you are not lying?

Back to topic. Love is the willingness to do what is best for the other person. This best thing can only be defined by what is perfect. God is perfect. God is Love. And He has loads to say about love. Love that the world has twist and degrade to mere feelings of pleasure and longing.

Love is more than just feeling. It is a set of actions defined by God. It is a command that goes to this extend.

Love your enemies.

Right? Who with a sane mind would do that? Why would one love your enemies?Aren't they the people you want to see as far from you as possible?

But the bible says love your enemies. (Matthew 5:43-44)
It even moves on to say that love is the fulfilment of law.( Galatians 5:14/James 2:8)
In fact it was written in the Gospel that it is the most important Law. Love your God and your Neighbour. Everything hangs on it.

For Christians. See John 13: 34-35
It says that the world will know that you are God's disciples if you love one another.

1Corinthians 13: 1-7

1If I speak in the tongues[1] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames,[2] but have not love, I gain nothing.
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love is a command to be patient and kind. To not envy , boast or be Proud. Love will no be rude. Neither will it be self seeking. It is not easily angered and it does not keep records of wrong. Love will not take joy in things that are evil(unpleasing to God) but celebrates the truth.
It'll continu ouslyprotect, trust,hope and persevere.

You know what after typing all this, I'll really forgive my friend. I'll restart trusting, hoping and persevering. So I shall unblock my friend in MSN and start replying her messager.

Love is more than words. It's actions. Love is not feelings but because we love, we feel. It's different. You don't get love through mushy words and swearings of love. You give love when you chose to forsake yourself that those around you can be in a better situation. You love when you take the initiative to bless others , the pray for others to react with wisdom. Love thinks about truth. The right way to bless and help a person. You are not loving when you give a drug addict more drugs so that he will not be in pain. You'll do what is right. Comfort him/her throughout the withdrawal period.

Love is to give. Lust is to take.

If you have someone you don't like, treat him/her like your enemy. Love him/her!

Each time you build people in Christ or lead them to Christ, you are showing love. Love brings people to God.

Yawnnnn...I'm still survivng so far. Let's see after this friday, will I still be on my two feet?
Oh ya!! This Sunday = to Outing with Gladys Family. So Cool! I bet It'll recharge me . Because of all the laughing. Laugh till not tired. Lol.

SEe ya people! Christian!! LOVE !! It's A command!

Sunday, September 02, 2007

A Ferocious Mew!

A Ferocious Mew!

Wow...Steffi messaged me to encourage me. Even to offer support. So touching. I wonder where are the guys? Bros in Christ must take care of me too lei! Later I become a sis then you know. Wahahaaz.

Thanks Steffi! I'm shy? Maybe Maybe. But Thanks really. I really need such encouragements. Wahahaz.

Anyway, someone called my mom yesterday!

Mom told me all about it today.

Something caught my interest.

" I so sorry ! I made everybody in church hate yu ki. I promise that I will not do it again."

Wow...Let's hear that again

" I so sorry ! I made everybody in church hate yu ki. I promise that I will not do it again."

Wow...See that...how wicked. Don't worried dudes! Although my reputation has been damaged due to my lack of anger and self management, nobody hates me yet. I don't think Church should hate anybody. Or it can just go and burn in hell. I deserve my reputation damage. AFTERALL! I ain't good enough. Still learning. Life will be boring without a challenge. That was once my favourite phrase.

Still I can't believe that that was that person's ACTUAL motives. Dot's you know. I suspect that all along but I always tell myself that I'm thinking too much or that I'm just being bias and overimaginating in my mind. LOL !!!

Way to go yu ki ! You tried to help someone who tries to bring about your downfall. We should go celebrate together.

Mom scolded me for having a soft heart. She says that I'll have a hard future. I thought a little. I don't want an easy future. I want a future that glorifies God. You know, Jesus came to help those who will end up killing Him. Jesus came to lead a hard life that people will have an easy life.
I'm nowhere near Jesus yet but I'm learning . Coool! Huh? God is Great !

Things I did not say yestereday!

Chinese Service was superb. Their worships are like 3-4 times better? Cos of the passion. Although I understand less than 50 % of what was said, I can see from the hearts of the people. Sobs...So passionate.

Also !! The Holy Communion. They give twice the amount of wine sia! It burned alot on it's way down. Burrrp! hahaz.

Something scared me yesterday.Song Kian condemned a person! That boys is a littled retarded from brain damage. Fun guy . I never expect him to condemn....Wow...Yu Ki You are the symbol of love....if you condemn people like yesterday, there won't be love. Even the retards who do not seems capable of condemning will start condemning those you condemn.

Scary Huh? But God gave me a verse in Esther 4: 12-16

12When Esther's words were reported to Mordecai,
13 he sent back this answer: "Do not think that because you are in the king's house you alone of all the Jews will escape.
14 For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father's family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this?"
15 Then Esther sent this reply to Mordecai:
16 "Go, gather together all the Jews who are in Susa, and fast for me. Do not eat or drink for three days, night or day. I and my maids will fast as you do. When this is done, I will go to the king, even though it is against the law. And if I perish, I perish."

Hmmm....No reason to abuse what was given to me. The gift of patience. If i perish from helping others, SO LET IT BE! Who cares, my reward is in heaven.

xp

Da da da da ~ da You can't touch me.

hahahaz..

Gotta GO!!!
Such a busy life. Think I'll be late.

Jugdement, Mercy, Grace

Judgement, Mercy, Grace

Sundays have changed. Life after service used to be fun because of YF. YF however, had shifted to saturdays. This was never meant to be a stop to all the fun. The stop was because of something else. Something that separate me from the rest. Something that drives me nuts...and past my nuts limit.

Anyway, today wasn't really a nice day. One of my shirt. One that I really like and one that was given to me just this new year. Was stained with curry.

Anyway, my mother knew it and she knew the whole truth. She was as annoyed as I am.

But you know what. I had been really angry and irritated for most of the morning.

I attended Chinese Service and God spoke to me.You know what....I'm watchinga movie right now. No mood to blog.

The punchline is this. I forgive that person ...and I forget that person.

Wahahahz. I think I shall excommunicate.

Maybe I'll change blog webbie. Maybe Change Church. I don't know. I'l wait for God's Answer. God has been really weird nowadays. Speaking at unexpected times and seems absent in times I needed Him most.Seems.....It's always after everything or until I do something right before He reveals Himself.

I wanted to blog much but welll....I shall do that in actions. I'm excited.

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