and I, trust You to lead me on. / 要与你同行哦主。引导我生命；一生跟随你。

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Praise God.

Woke up unwanting to do Quiet Time....but God draw me to Him as I read the blogs. Touched by how my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ are doing in their walk and ultimately remembering that I am to put the Carnal man aside and be the Spiritual man.

Saw this on Simon's blog.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZYi-w5GBU-U&session=qO0VUqHBfWqJLtA5w2-UIITm81amJch6iFSZ-AKcbQR-NQ4KYXP8RqaiQdr7K2zW1EyxvVqOQGBAdox9IuOpHgu-Dstj6uO6g3Wpt41A08OHO0axvt_P1Z-kxdHyyZM7ELZwM99gY-aVa5pKxdqs8R8aw6LtHAcE3mncoXyA8KAY8YYqjBaCbFxQrHJ_FKmSwwWzFpmMGh0q99404-wBqxJAmHxiP0b8PVEqcaTD2DkGOZfoGAINDsu1ZKs-PlJRXMYbhFynbQ_c9IPkgIYtOfRB2DX2ZUXA

It's about the Prince of Egpyt and it's Soundtrack. It's real touching.

I can't help but notice that Pharoah althrough given enough evidence to conclude that the God of Hebrews(God's nick at that time) is the real God. The word of God says that Pharoah's heart was hardened. It makes me think. How many of us have such a hardened heart. Both Christians and Non Christians. That although given enough evidences, still refused God. Much like my hardened refusal to do QT today. oops.

It was mentioned that there is not enough evidence to prove God exist. But this is what the bible says.
Roman 1 : 20
For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.

God revealed much since the Creation of the world.
From the past, we have miracles and Jesus.
People claims this as impossiblities and giving their own hypothesis on what could have actually happened.

Notethat there are archaeological evidences on the miracles. Like Noah's ark, opening of the Red Sea and so on. But what's so sobering is this message in the bible.
Luke 16:27-31

"He answered, 'Then I beg you, father, send Lazarus to my father's house,

28for I have five brothers. Let him warn them, so that they will not also come to this place of torment.'

29"Abraham replied, 'They have Moses and the Prophets; let them listen to them.'

30" 'No, father Abraham,' he said, 'but if someone from the dead goes to them, they will repent.'
31"He said to him, 'If they do not listen to Moses and the Prophets, they will not be convinced even if someone rises from the dead.' "

The pharisees did not believe in when Jesus rose from the dead. Neither did the world. And until one can stop and honestly look at this accusation and really consider. Search out the Truth.
One will not agree that one's heart is hardened and is continually rejecting the truth at hand.

Even if you consider the present day. Whatever written in the bible is coming to a past. Nothing from Proven Science does not agree with it. I must stress proven science because, science seems to be filled with hypothesis and unproven but accepted theory. Talk about false teachers huh? They may not teach wrong doctrines but definitely do produce false knowledge to decieve alot of people. And like what the bible says , many are deceived.

Prayer this morning is that I'll learn to put God. Knowing that He is God. May I not be hardened but continually reflect and evaluate on my actions. Also, may the many lost sheeps out there make the effort to seek out who God really is.

Luke 19:1-10

Read through Luke 19 this morning.

It's about Zacchaeus.

Zacchaeus is the Chief Tax Collector in a town name Jericho.

He is a very rich man. At that time, Tax Collectors are condemned people as they were seen as traitors to their countries. Collecting money from their own people and giving it to the occupating nation. They also had a bad reputation of extorting more money then they are required to tax upon the people. Therefore Hated.

Zacchaeus's response after encountering Jesus is what I want to focus on today.

Let's look at Verse 8. How Zacchaeus respond to Jesus after Jesus decided be his guest. Note that in verse 7 the people knew that Zacchaeus is not a righteous man and wasn't happy about Jesus staying at his place.

Verse 8:
But Zacchaeus stood up and said to the Lord, "Look, Lord! Here and now I give half of my possessions to the poor, and if I have cheated anybody out of anything, I will pay back four times the amount."

Now...what do you see here? I see two things . One; Immediate repentance. Two; A straight understanding of what is of more importance.

Zacchaeus gave half of his possessions to the poor and is willing to pay back 4 times the amount he has cheated. I'm not saying that once you acept Jesus as Lord and Savior, you'll need to give half of your possesions to the poor. It's his willingness to turn over a new leaf. Not only he right what he has done by returning back 4 times the amount he cheated(I think it is the jewish law;somewhere in Old Testiment) he makes the effort to do good by giving to the poor.

I don't think he cheats only a few people by the way. So to pay back 4 times plus half of your fortune is really a big thing in this case. Not many people can even give 10% of what they have nowadays. SO Check this out.

This also brings me to my second point. How he place aside his riches. To him it's no longer important.

This make me think. I do struggle with putting God first. I hardly do that.

So my prayer is this. That I'll put aside what is truely unimportant and put God first . Knowing and claiming Matthew 6: 33 that if I seek God's Kingdom and righteousness first, all I need will be provided. I also ask for a repenting heart. To turn aside from what is not right and seek to do good!

God blessed me with much. My family ate together...abit awkward but WELL!!! THAT'S a beautiful start! PRAISE GOD!!! First time in 15 years since my family spilt. The cold wall is there but to sit together to eat as a family, it's a beautiful gift from God. =]

Monday, July 30, 2007

A NEW MAN!!!

CARRIEEEE THE ALMIGHTY!!!!!!!!

Well...Carrie is so desperate to have me to put this here.
I think about it and I conclude.
How can I reject a poor little pitiful pathetic whining growling screeching biting baby Dino/Kitty ( Mutation gone wrong)

RIGHT?

I betcha agree.

Carrie thinks otherwise...but no one asked for her opinion.

By the way, she's on my phone. Chanting Oi Oi Oi and producing weird screeches but you are probably not interested in that.
What I'm about to type is probably alot more interesting the sum of Carrie's entire life.

Wow...I can't believe this . My family is about to gather tomorrow to eat! Amazing... So..Should I be happy or sad? To tell you the truth ... I do not know... Part of me is happy as my family is eating together for the first time in 15 years. Part of me is afraid...as it seems too good to be true. I smell a fish. What if mom turns down the offer the laast minute? I cannot picture my family eating together honestly. Although I've been praying about it.

Carrie: RAWRRR!!

I watched 200 Pounds beauty today. It was really touching ...but you should have a certain level of maturity before watching it. You may pick up all the wrong values and messed up your life.
In total I like the movie. The Lead Actress look good.

Anyway all this isn't important.

After reading some of Jim Elliot's Diary . (Christine lend it to me) I decided to refocus my life on God. To put aside the Carnal Man and to be the Spiritual Man. I have alot to change. Alot to Fight and it's not easy. I've been living in darkness for quite some time now. I must step to the light. Make the decision to follow God. Just as Jesus said " Yet not My will but Your will be done."

I'll start to blog everyday. On my quiet time and my life .

And...I have something to ask from my readers....
Please be my accountability partner. If I have not blog for that day, please remind me of this day.

=] Cheers.

Need to entertain Carrie now...

Labels: There and Back...Again....

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Do Not Quit

Never Regret a day in your life...

This is a very beautiful message worth passing on to everyone.
One day I decided to quit...I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God. "God",
I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?" His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?""Yes", I replied.
"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor.
Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo." He said.
"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit." He said.
"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots.
Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge It could not handle." He said to me.
"Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots?" "I would not quit on the bamboo.
I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others." He said.
"The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful."
"Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high"
"How high should I rise?" I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned "Yes." He said,
"Give me glory by rising as high as you can."
I left the forest and bring back this story. I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
He will never give up on you.
Never regret a day in your life.
Good days give you happiness; bad days give you experiences; both are essential to life

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

A Korean Tale

Hey! Here's My Testimony about my Trip to Korea.

HiieeEE! Everybody!

My trip to Korea has been fun and enriching. In addition to many beautiful sights here and there, I get to see many fantastic Christians.

The first 7 days of my trip was in this huge mega conference. 20 000 people from all around the world gathered. There are even people from persecuted countries who put their lives at risk by just coming. Wow.

This is also the first time whereby I worshipped God with songs with so many people from so many different places. It was great. Fantastic. It makes me wonder how it'll be like in heaven. When people of every nation and tribe gathers to worship and praise God. Real Exciting.

However, through this worship , I learn a valuable lesson. I've always have problems about clapping at the end of the worship songs. It makes me feel as if I'm clapping for the worship team. I know that it is mean to be for God but I fear that I may stumble those who do not know or over inflate the worship team. God took the 7 days to tell me this (partially it is my stubborness that cause it to take so long); That worship is between Him and me. I should not have worried so much.DO I not trust that He can protect His worshippers and worship leaders?

I had always said that I'll clap for God when my Conscience is clear for I do not want to give God a half hearted clap. God told me that if I do not start now , I'll never start. I may not be able to give me all at the first time, but it is the first step I'll need to take . I need to step out of my comfort zone.

It brings me back to the SU Camp I attended long ago when I'm a young believer. I learnt that worship is a sacrifice at one's part. In this case it is to step of of my comfort, put aside everything to worship God. To clap for God.

The conference had many sessions that allowed me to learn to share the Gospel and one thing I notice in similarity, it the condition of one's heart. Which is linked to their walk with God.

This became crystal clear as I take part in the mission trip that comes after it. I see how the Koreans lived their lives. Prayer at 5 in the morning, not everybody lives near the church by the way. There is weekly prayer nights at 10 pm on fridays. I was like wow! The people there, including youths, really dedicate their lives to God. They'll wake up early to do quiet time with God too.

Their passion a love struck me too. As I see them pray and evangelise. Those youth have so much heart for the loss in their neighbourhood. They joyfully participate in Street Evangelism
and go as much as to perform on the streets to share the Gospel. Now. How cool is that? I had so much difficulty getting people to share gospel back in my school. Even I have to struggle with it too. I see so much contrast and I affirmed myself, that sharing the gospel will not be a struggle for me again and I'll pray and looked forward in hope that I can see the students in my school will be as fervent as the korean youths are.

I was asked this question before my trip. Do Koreans need missionaries? I was unable to answer then, but now I am. The place I went to, Cheng Ju had only 8% Christians and the living conditions there are horrible. There are also lots of sexual vices in the area, a total of 4 cult groups and a huge no....gigantic buddhist temple. That place was a shock to me I've never thought Korea a spiritually high place to have things like this.
I even heard that there is a village whereby there is only one church and it's members are the couple that runs it.

It makes me see the danger of taking things for granted. Korea still needs prayers and evangelists.

Thank you!=]

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Hmmm..Dreams huh?

Wooohoooooo!!

Check out my new bloggie skin.

It was love at first sight!

Wanna blog about my trip to Korea actually....but due to the lack of time and a sad new, I decided not to.

I shall blog about today.

A Day of Mishaps. Sounds cool? Well....not really for me.

It started badly today. I hardly accomplish a few promises I made to God during the Korea trip.
Will have to try so each day.It's not easy but with God, everthing is possible.

There's a quote!
God's work done in God's way on God's time can never be short of God's supplication.
and a verse!
Philipians 4:13

Hees!

The day carry it slow difficulty to 11.30 am whereby I bath and set off!

Objective of the Day!
1) Return Hamster to Meng Xue
2) Get a Scissor and Organiser from Clementi's Big Book Shop
3) Do Thursday Bible Study Homework.

Looks simple. I cancelled Lunch with my Crusaders. Ooops.

I reached my secondary school 30mins ahead of time (As always)
Stoned for a while and then decided to read the bible outside of the school. It's proverbs 11.
Weird Chapter.

I then went into my secondary school.(Friend messaged me to meet her in the canteen.)
Was apprehensive at first but picked up courage to enter.(The school feel so foreign now)
The Security Guard did not recognize Mr Popular. Fine by me. At least I can get in.

Saw my China Friend. Passed her the hamster. Stayed and chat with her for a while.
Shared about my korea trip. Hear about her problems with her studies. Arranged a time to meet to play badminton. Next Wednesday, 18 July, I hope to get them to play in the sports complex in Clementi.

People I hoped to see there
1) Daniel
2) Meng Xue
3) Pamela
4) Tabitha

Meng Xue called Pamela to come down when she ends school.

She came and as expected, I felt a wince of pain.
On the surface she seems ok.
But she seems ok.
But what about all that I heard has happened.
The Classic Emo Look and a dash of laughter here and there.
Also all failings and wrong I've done to her.

Memories of old times came back.

I failed as a friend and a brother in Christ.
As a group we had so much fun. Badminton and all.
I was told that a jovial person like her will never be affected her mother's death.
It seems like my old friend is doing well.
But I remember all too well...her rejection of God when her mother died.
After a while she had to leave us.
The pain was overwhelming.
But I'm so glad that she is doing well.

I chat a little longer with my China friend Meng Xue. Then we departed. I wised her well and the best. She had currently 5 A1s I'm so happy for her but she'll need to improve her English.

Looking forward for Badminton this coming Wed!

I saw Jtaime. After a short awkward hi and her confession of forgetting my birthday, we depart. (Was talking with Meng Xue at that time.)

Objective 1 Done!

Now I walk from Tanglin Secondary school to the Clementi Big bookshop. I decided to message Jtaime. I have not catch up with her for a long time. My MEI! Hahaz.

My impression of her first few messages was that she was jealous that I'm talking to other girls.
I was accused of flirting and ignoring my mei.
I was quick to defend myself. I'm innocent! Well except for the ignoring part. I forgot to message her! I had promised to message her more often. I forgot...ooops.
I did however assured her that I've not forgotten her. Bringing up the fact that I have not forgotten to celebrate her birthday each year. In an indirect way shooting her for forgetting mine for 2 years in a row. Think I'll demand a birthday present tomorrow. Wahahahaz.
I really missed my mei. She had been a really good friend. A great support. Really Direct and lively. A little childish but it's ok. If only she believes in God. >_< Had loved her as she had loved me but rejected her as she was a non-believer.
Anyway..She's studying for a O's already. Shall support her thoughtout!!
Be a Good Kor.
Better off not having a relationship than to jump into one that displeases God.
My slippers broke when I'm just outside school. I was made to limp all the way the the bookshop. I looked super pathetic.
A few sarcastic remarks I made.

1) I always wanted attention. (people were staring at me)
2) I looked as if I'm kick out of home because I believed in God. (Might happen in the future)

Laughed to myself and reminded myself that there is still the long walk between the MRT to Home. Prayed real hard.

Objective 2 Done.

Met the girl at the hawker centre near my church. One that looks so much like my friend Yiting. Except that Yiting is shorter. haha =x.

Found out that she lives in Jurong and studies in Singapore poly. Cool.
Did not manage to get her name and contact but it's not important.

Got home.

Did my Bble study homework on Romans 14. Enriching Chapter.

Objective 3 Accomplished .

~~~~Back to now.~~~~
Read a friend's blog which broke my heart.
I never knew she had that frail side.
She looks so perfect.
I wished that I can somehow helped her or at least...comfort her.
I have no idea how...

Ivan just called and asked me to lead worship for this Saturday.
Big problem.
Gonna pray hard !
Am scared. So little preparation time.
But God has been telling me that I'll sure lead worship this sat.
I kept ignoring Him.
And sure as He said, Ivan will be over seas this Saturday and Steffi already led worship.
It falls on me.

Hees. God is Serious (low Voice)

Need to sleep le!! Had test tomorrow. Have not yet studied. Ooops.

Guess...Who is the lady in the blogskin. xp