Self Destructing

Fear

Dreams

Mom had a dream.
I'll tell of it.

She was bored at her office. So she took a walk. She walked for a long time.
She walked and walked. Till she came to a jungle like environment.
She looked at the time. It's getting late.
She decided to head back but... she don't recognize the way home.
Needless to say, my mom's frighten. Saw saw wild animals.
She wanted to asked those around her to help her but she was afraid that she'll ask a bad person.
So she did not.
Then she saw a group of teenagers. People my age. She asked them for help. They told her she had to that a boat which comes at 8.00.
My mom was worried , there's not enough time. Also throughout this time, she can see her office. She just cannot get there.

I've got a intepretation. I decided not to share it here.

Dreams.

My only pain ...the pain of others

Alright time to know more about me.
Today's topic was on me for quite a while .

What hurts me more than suppressing myself?
Oh...if you not know that hurts me.... well ...you don't need to know.

ok...back to topic.

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Betcha can't guess without looking first at my title.

Let me give you a situation:

Life has always been good. Except for a few mean people you meet once in a while. Still life is easy. You’re never in need or in want. You've learnt to be content. You know your wants and your needs. You also realize that you do not need much. You even once thought that life was more fun in the jungles. Like Tarzan. Food everywhere. Wahahahz. You are never in want because of your wants. In fact, you need to confess that you used to laugh at people when they complain about not having a want. Life was well and ok. Filled with goodness and smiling people.

You have never put yourself to consideration. Well…before you know the world and its ways. You faced punishment thinking of others instead of yourself. You remembered telling your maid once after being caned. “People used to only cane animals. Now they caned children and beat animals with sticks. What will happen to the children in the future? Are they going to beat children with sticks?” Now that you thought of this, you laugh at yourself. You sounded so silly at that time.
You valued discipline now. You see that suffering builds character and of course you also know that too much of it can kill a person. Physically, Mentally and Spiritually. Then you think is it the right way? So was the young you or the old you right?

You grew up. Although harden and tainted by the world’s impurities, you loved to help. Soon you are well known in school as one who is always there. Always there to help. Always there for people ignored or condemned by the rest. You had a good name. You are known to never turn down anyone even people who hurt you. During Prom Night, you won the award Graciousness to Accommodate. Surprised! But glad, you persist on. Finding Joy in giving Joy…little did you know, it is because you have nothing else to give.

However, there has been a series of cases that arise recently and they stumped you. Those around you started to have problems. Problems you hear and not know how to help. You so much wanted to help but you do not know how to help.
You are grieve-stricken. (You treasured and loved those around you. Even those who blink in and out of your life. You treasured the times spent together for you know they’ll never last and also because that you are always alone.) Soon you reached a state where you just stood seeing those people around you fall one by one. You cannot help…You do not know how to help.

You had a good life. Never in need. You had a good life. Never in want. You have a good life and you know it. It hurts you to see that people around you suffer while you enjoy life. It hurts you to see people around you collapsing under problems and you can do nothing to help. It hurts you so bad that you just want to break down and cry. You just want to cry out all the problems that are happening.



This song has always been strangely comforting. It seems to express me. Needless to say, it is my favorite song.

S Club 7 Lyrics
Song: Never Had A Dream Come True Lyrics

Ooh...

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind.
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time.
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering).
How it could be now or neither been (or neither been).
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I never had a dream come true.
Till that day that I found you.
Even though I pretend that I've moved on.
You'll always be my baby.
I never found the words to say.
You're the one I think about each day.
And I know no matter where love takes me to.
A part of me will always be with you.

Somewhere in my memory.
I lost all sense of time.
And tomorrow can never be.
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind.
There's no use looking back or wondering.
How it should be now or neither been (or neither been).
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I never had a dream come true.
Till that day that I found you.
Even though I pretend that I've moved on.
You'll always be my baby.
I never found the words to say.
You're the one I think about each day.
And I know no matter where love takes me to.
A part of me will always be with you.

You'll always be the dream that fills my head.
(Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby)
You'll always be the one I know. (I'll never forget)
There's no use looking back or wondering. (or wondering)
Because love is a strange and funny thing.
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye.
No no no no .

I never had a dream come true.
Till that day that I found you.
Even though I pretend that I've moved on.
You'll always be my baby.
I never found the words to say.
You're the one I think about each day.
And I know no matter where love takes me to.
A part of will always be with you .

A part of me will always be with you.


This song is what I aimed to be. Needless to say this is my favourite song too.

OH, WHY YOU LOOK SO SAD?
TEARS ARE IN YOUR EYES.
COME ON AND COME TO ME NOW.
DON'T BE ASHAMED TO CRY.
LET ME SEE YOU THROUGH.
'CAUSE I'VE SEEN THE DARK SIDE TOO.
WHEN THE NIGHT FALLS ON YOU.
YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
NOTHING YOU CONFESS COULD MAKE ME LOVE YOU LESS

I'LL STAND BY YOU.
I'LL STAND BY YOU.
WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU.
I'LL STAND BY YOU.

SO....
IF YOU'RE MAD, GET MAD.
DON'T HOLD IT ALL INSIDE.
COME ON AND TALK TO ME NOW.
HEY, WHAT YOU GOT TO HIDE?
I GET ANGRY TOO.
WELL I'M A LOT LIKE YOU.
WHEN YOU'RE STANDING AT THE CROSSROADS
AND DON'T KNOW WHICH PATH TO CHOOSE.
LET ME COME ALONG 'CAUSE EVEN IF YOU'RE WRONG.

I'LL STAND BY YOU.
I'LL STAND BY YOU.
WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU.
I'LL STAND BY YOU.

AND WHEN...
WHEN THE NIGHT FALLS ON YOU, BABY.
YOU'RE FEELING ALL ALONE.
YOU WON'T BE ON YOUR OWN.

CAUSE I'LL STAND BY YOU.
I'LL STAND BY YOU.
WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU.
I'LL STAND BY YOU.

WHEN THE NIGHT FALLS ON YOU,
BABY YOU'RE FEELING ALL ALONE.
YOU WON'T BE ON YOUR OWN
TAKE ME IN INTO YOUR DARKEST HOUR
AND I'LL NEVER DESERT YOU.
I'LL STAND BY YOU.
I'LL STAND BY YOU.

WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU.
I'LL STAND BY YOU.
WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU.
I'LL STAND BY YOU

Pain of others ....my only pain