Saturday, January 28, 2006
Foulest Movie, Le Parkour , Happy New Year
Wow.....after a dinner at Seoul Garden , some of us sports leaders went to watch night movie.
we watched the Memoirs of a Geisha. It was a nice movie . Good Storyline.....but it was rather tragic.....Well tragic to the extent that in BB term, it will means FOUL!!! Really It was Foul! The whole movie. People out there! If you think your life cannot get any worse , watch this.You will appriciate your life after that.....well unless you are those type of pathetic , self-centred Weakling . hahahaz
For the sake of those who want to watch the movie, I will not Elaborate the Foulnest of this good Movie...The more I think of that story .....wah...unspeakable...Foulllll.Poor Girl . High Class Prostitute....Foul.
Anyway the movie was long...It ended about 12 something.I was suprise at the amount of night life in Takashimaya.Wow....but how to go home? We spilt into groups . So we took taxi . Fang Yi and I dropped at Queenstown MRT station while Hong Jun proceed to Clementi. I ran homw all the way. It was Shiok !!
Didn't sleep well . The Next day, I woke up at 7 to run errands for Mom....Tired...Tired.After that , I meet up with Azhairul to attend a Le Parkour training. It was fun! I'll sure go back.Tough as it is. The people there are fun but...There are some smokers , loads of Vuglarites. Hmp....Sacrafices have to be made. I wanna learn . A QuArter way through training, I injured my self. Ouch. I knee hit the pull up bar while vaulting. OUCH!
cannot walk....Now still have difficulty bending it. Overall it was fun although my injury is really restraining.
At the reunion dinner, had loads of fun and not enough food hahahahaz...weird food hahaahz.Vegetarian food. I was asking ..what for be vegetarian when your food resembles meat. HAAHAHHAZ Haiz,....people getting funnier by each day.
. To day! went Church now waiting....for events to unfold..That's all for now! Better days are coming!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! WOOOF hahahahahz
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Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Peeeed on in Public hahahaz
Erm....before the topic of the day....I shall narrate the day.
Reach school by one. Nothing much...ate ...Stall 5 auntie may invite me to her house on new year. Oh yeah! Extra income...lolz....I'm not like that hahahaz.
Hmmm Pineapple Juice combined with Melon Juice does not taste bad!
Work accomplish : 0 ouch...that hurts. Well lucky I have side objective for that day or I may suffer the pains of boredom. Gathered extra info on The Boy's Brigade and the events to come.
Gonna become spiderman soon. Catch me! -=p
Installed Generals demo Game into the com....Cool game . Too bad I only have the Demo. hhahahz. VIolent through.Completed the demo. Summaries that the game is about making the opponent fly. BB people should get that joke. Hahaz.
Mom called me to go home early and fetch the dog. So I packed the room and left. I travelled to the central stairs . I realised that I'm early.So I started reading my Bio book . Till times up . Then I leave......actually still too early althought It should be on time.
Reached 30 minutes early. Played with a schnauzer there. It was so stone...So only stroke it. Well sounds easybut try doing that for an hour.Don't ask why I didn't stop. It's too cute hahahhaz It's like when you stop petting it, It will look at you and then use the nose to get you to stroke it. hahhaahz.
The person was late so I have to wait an hour...Arhhh ..I hate waiting!!!!!
Got that dog and went Mom's place. I took care not to shake it much by supporting it.Halfway to the bus stop my pants felt wet and something smells bad. I checked what happened when I got to the bus stop. The DOG PEEEDD....and I was hit because I carry it close to me to make it less shaky.Hmmmm No more Mr nice Yu Ki here. Need less to say the dog's priviledge is gone. I ain't gonna carry it close ... not with the pee. LOLZ.
I was just glad to reach my destination.
Tiring.. So heavy.hahahaz
Tomorrow comes a better day!!!
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Peeee in Public hahahaz
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Tuesday, January 24, 2006
All about Negativity and Pain Hahaz.
Born out of False love,
Weak and pathetic.
Just the way I was
When I'm young.
So sick was me,
I never had childhood peace.
Doctor each day,
Vomit each night.
That summaries my Genesis.
Never remembered Joy.
Perhaps I've none at all.
What could I expect ,
When I'm dazed by Illness.
Never saw love.
Except on Tv.
How could they loved me,
If they don't know how love each other.
Perhaps It's my fault ,
as it has always been.
After all ,
it was I who separate them by my silly fear.
Now I'm older,
I'm begining to learn.
However,
my teachers would not teach me love.
They showed me ,
the prime example ,
of self - destruction ,
but how was I to know?
One thing I know.....
They taught me right.
Was respect I'm to give to them.
No....Only to Mom.
How was I to Know?
I was a child.
Brought up on lies and discord.
Mom and Dad were the perfect example.
Yeah perfect is what I thought they were.
I've not knew they were only human.
So I took It all .
Learning the very worst.
Mommy pictured to me.
Daddy's the very worst.
In fact his teochew kinds are the scum of the earth.
Daddy was a stone who knew nothing at all.
Even if he knew , he won't react at all.
There you go ,
the recipe for a calamity,
in child up bringing.
And I was the result.
So I grew up ,
not wanting to be Dad.
I grew up following Mom's ideals.
I'm just lucky she has good ideals.
Daddy is all I avoid.
Soccer, he likes, I'm made to detest.
My hate for smokers ,
also stems from there.
With pain and cane ,
I was taught with fear.
To be the best is my only choice.
To be perfect was Mommy's choice.
I still remember the pain
and the sleepless night.
The endless work and beatings I'm made to bear.
And friends, I was still a sickly child.
Around this time,
before Kindergarden.
I had only witness hate.
Hate that drive my bloodlines.
Cousins Fighting,
Parents lying,
Sibling Rivalry.
Hey my parents were the only adults.
Kindergarden Begins.
I entered it armed
with the knowledge trust no one
Given with love by my mother.
How would I know?
She's my Mother.
Am I not to trust one I see as Mom?
I had not known she's only human.
Well Kindergarden wasn't exactly fun.
I was with people who ain't so people.
They only strengthen my distrust for people.
For meanies is all I saw.
There you go ,
the recipe for a calamity,
in child up bringing.
And I was the result.
I was again Lucky.
That I was not bullies victim.
Again I'm Lucky .
My esteem's not hurt.
I just do not understand.
Why people were so mean to a sick child
So I believed people out there,
are dangerous people.
In primary School,
I saw my mistakes.
People are fun!
Especially for catching.
I saw a friend ,
who was popular.
by the way he behaves
By the way he is a Joker.
I tried to follow.
In hope to be a somebody.
Little did I know.
That's the stupidest idea.
I continue to grow.
In pain and conflicts to much to type down.
Continue to grow ,
till I learn more truth.
How it pains me .
To look back in those years.
Those lonely years.
That resulted me today.
Always need to prove.
Always need to be the best.
Always need to be perfect.
Even though I know I can never acheive it.
In almost every of my past photos,
I stand out from the rest.
I did not knew it
till I see it.
It pains .....
but who is born out perfect?
Who had a perfect life?
Well not all.
We all suffered
We all cried
We all had our darkest times
Which is almost every time.
But as we grow ,
we learn .
We understand.
But not all.
I'm lucky ....
I've found true joy.
I've found hope
and new grief.
Still there are others
Who have given up
I grief for them.
May They find what I've found someday.
Wow....tired le.....
Finally got my hamster food le
Life is hard .
But I've found God.
I lived in hope for a better day.
A day God promised me.
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Sunday, January 22, 2006
Yeah...that's the snake...The African Bronzeback.
Lead Worship in church to day.....Well ...It was good except that half way my throat dried up. I don't why I've never faced it before....well except when running and not drinking. I was Like struggling to sing but after a quick request to God , I got my voice back. Praise the Lord. Queer Christopher went home...I was intenting to Play Badminton with him...well more like he wanna play with me. So no one play with me....Sad....I'm feeling tired from lack of vigourous activities.Anyway tomorrow garantees Soccer from more reliable Personnels.YEAH!!!.Anyway today is the Last Sunday Pastor will be in our church.Hmmmm All the Best Pastor! My Salutories. Well the Pastor who took over was a great Joker.HaHAAHAz. He invited the Old pastor up to pray for him. He added in "So how does life taste on the other side." Wow...Fantastic.hahahahz.
Today I Renewed my Blog so that I can put in a c box.
Rather interesting choices I faced.So in the End I decided to let my mom choose.
Well that can reenforce family spirits.
I got loads of help . Special thanks to Jennifer who help with the blogskin and C box and also special thanks to Pamela who help with the music selection.
Made apoem today...unfortunately it's about my family so ain't a happy one hahahaz.
till next time....Soccer ...tomorrow...I can already feel it today.
BYEZ
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Saturday, January 21, 2006
Absail down the African Bronzeback
Gotta write about this.
21 Jan Saturday.
Woke up at 6.30...ahhhh I wanna sleep hahahz. Nah I want to play soccer actually lolz.Reach church at 8 something and it's absailing time in Bukt Timah!! Actually not me absailing...haiz....It's my boys absailing....I'm the watcher..Had loads of fun....accidentally drained my handphone's battery...oh no....trouble.Saw loads of interesting wild life hahahz. The best is yet to come.
After absailing , on our way out, the boys spotted a snake!!!. Cool An African Bronzeback...At first thought It is a vine snake. Then The people told me it is an African Bronzeback.Played with it hahahz. It was like so cute .Later a pass it to the boys but within minutes, they lost the snake....haiz...they really ah don't know how to handle life.Poor Noel...so much wanted to take picture with the snake.Perhaps next time you will get your chance hahahahaz.
After that, I had Worship leading practice! Well I'm the Worship Leader on this Sunday.Fun....and difficult....3/4 of the time I don't understand what I'm suppose to do.Sobzz.....I wanna pick up Music lessons.....Haiz...some people are so blessed haahahz.After practice, Went for YF steamboat!! Had loads of fun...eating.Lolz Watching people play in arcade is so fun too hahahaz.I didn'y know Ivan can drum....He was like fantastic lolz....So funny and fun.
Went home after that.
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Friday, January 20, 2006
Relevations
Hmmmm Guess WHAT people!!!
The work I did yesterday...ALL GONE!!!! Argh.......Any way it offers me to improve it hahaahz...
now it is even better. Praise be to God.
Hmmm floor ball was played today by.. the sec 2. I wish I can play tooo...Haiz.....Depressed...no one wants to play with me hahahahz.Then THey were giving this nice blue shirt out,......but it is only for the Sec 2....Sobzz....But.....Thank God tooo I have a friend named Yu Qi hahahz same as me. He gave me his ! YEAH!!! now got new shirt!
Later Had a talk with Tommy...Hmmm seeing Visions.....Saving the world. Well I will not judge what he says....If his heart is pure, then good .The end is coming. If not then Hope he can take it.
Well Lets see ...interesting.
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Thursday, January 19, 2006
Virtual Problems....hahahz
Woohooo.....Today's ghostbusters is great hahahaz......I'm a Kids Central kid lolz......
Hmmm Today I did some power point presentation in School. Hmm my captain states that we have two powerful computer in the Boy's Brigade room.....thought he has high standards....The computers look and work weakly hahahahz. Anyway the music is great .Don't know who place it there, but great songs they were.I was like so happy with my work that I spent some times admiring them hahahahaz. Well I take pride in my doings.hahaz.
Anyway...Didn't get to play Badminton today...suppose to play with Meng Xue and Pamela....But haiz....They were too stoned to play...haiz......Sian....No one wants to play with me.Hmmm....Christopher ...this sunday....Badminton.Good or esle I might suffer energy overload again.
Yesterday another Miracle happened!! I am suppose to bring food home for my brother. Well I place it at the table so that I cannot miss it but I miss it anyway hahahahz. Well the bus did not come at the bus stop...lolz.....Was so grumpy at that moment.Till Mom called . Then I remembered My Bro's food. Lucky that the bus did not come haahhaz. So I went back and the bus came just as I return.....Cool All ended smoothly! Praise be to GOD!!
Hmmmm...Talk to Jerry today. I hope he learn something. He got loads of potential....plus unfortunately inconfidence.
Anyway this conclude my fun and exciting day...Well For all who had a bad day. Don't feel bad Tomorrow will always bring new surprises and challenges ....Embrace them not fear them!
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Wednesday, January 18, 2006
Daniel's Dad's Den
Hmmmm...I'm getting better at this hahahaz...Daniel's Dad's Den...hahaz.
Cool .That's the highlight of today.
Woke up at 6.30...actually earlier....but tried to force my self to sleep...hahahaz.
Left house at ....7 arrive in Ghim Moh Secondary at ......7 something.Hmmm help out at Tabitha's bookshop hahahz. Had funny...Jeffrey was so cute!!!She look so adorable when she curl up to sleep.....It's like so sweet. She slept in the bookshop.. Took some photos of her... around 4 then keep the best one.After the noise died down, I carried Jeffrey and put her at the printing machine. She's so cute......So sad that she is sick....Skin disease....poor kitty But she's still
adorable like most cats hahahaz.
We finally made contact with the elusive Daniel...After some problems, Meng Xue ,Pamela, Hassanah bidded out....Luckily Tab stay on.We need to get to aljunied Mrt at 3.......Whoa.....So we go ...We reached at 3.31....perfect as expected.
Daniel's dad live in a very beautiful place .....had loads of fun eating......yeah coz of rain and time constraint , nothing much is Done.
Oh yeah out ran a car today!!!
WooHoo!!!!
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Monday, January 16, 2006
A New Hope
Hmmm.... In response to the dark times, many noble people has step up to balance the scale of good and evil. Sacrifice is importance....Noble but difficult ..... Beautiful to see. Life is taking a turn for the better....I can see the light.....Many has approach it....good... but I'm still worried about some people.....Self - Pity .....number one killer of many people.....Alot of people are so stuck with gthe comforts of self pity that they cannot see the answers that are smack right at their face....this are the people to really pity ...well.....to pity more than smokers hahahahaz.
I've recovered pretty fast...hmmm good ....I've survived with only a few scars at my hands.....althought I still have some mild headache from fatigue, I'm ok. It was one of the moments I'm really happy hahahaz. Ya to be able to do what people normally would not be able to do. It was even better this time because I did not eat or sleep that day.....and every thing fall in place so beautifully. Still I'll wait for the time to take down those banners......hahahz then I'll be spiderman again hahahaz.
Any way, today , I went out with Siao Qi to study Bio. At first it is suppose to be only her and me. Then 2 of her friends joined in. One is Sherlye and the other....I have not indentified. The nameless one left after we finish eating Mac. We did not study much but I believe that I aquired much. Haahahahz ....the test papers were easy .Well we ended up talking hahaz. Siao Qi was weird ...well telling identical riddles over and over again and expecting us to not know the answer is pretty weird to me. Had a fun time then we left at 6.07 pm
Haiz...there are so many things I missed out blogging due to0 the inability to achieve interest services.Wasted ....but who cares...hahahaz
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Thursday, January 12, 2006
War of the Yu Ki
Looks like going online is going to be difficult in the coming days....Still many other things awaits to be done.....This is gonna be a great year I just know it. I can feel it......It's going to be challenging and I'm going to face what I've never faced before . Yes It's scary....for the future is uncertain...But I have faith and I have God . Yes I will not be afraid.Not even when I have to step into new grounds or to walk through the shadowy valley of death.
Saw a monitor lizard in school yesterday which follows by loads of events which
i don't have the time to elaborate. hahahaz.
Today ....hmmmm suppose to play badminton with Pamela and Meng Xue but the events to come proves unfavourable. So I ended up reading my Bio textbook while hearing them scream their lungs out......Being with them Is Fun but.....damaging to ears hahahz.
The boys slack in their Drill But after some talking, they improve alot and almost perfect.I was feeling so light headed the whole day.... welll I am sick...
but I will not confine myself to my home.......Outside air will do me better.
Haiz......Life is so ......weird....I just cannot wait for tommorrows to come...perhaps outside home is where I feel home.....
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Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Schools BacK!!
Hmmm First day of SCHOOL!!
Well I'm not studing hahahaz. Well train boys drill. Good enough
Hmmmm looking for jobs,......
Laugh alot today...Ain't wanting to share much today....too tired.
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Sunday, January 01, 2006
Betrayed......By Brother.....
It's always blood related people who is going to bring me real grief . Cousins....brother...parents .....relatives.......They all sound the same to me.Pain. That's it pain . I get nothing from them but pain. Alright not all of them .Most of them.
Today.....the age long war between me and my brother should be over. Over years ago but little did I know that he still harbors the evils of the past . That Hypocrite. Labeling me secretly as lap dog while I classifly him as family. When I found out about that this afternoon, he refuses to reply me. A habit he develop to escape problems. He kept ignoring me treating me as a non-living thing. If there is someone who can make me cry or hate , it will be my brother. His devious capability can only be match by his cowardice. Yet I cannot hate him for he is my brother.I just wish that I can forget what that has happen .My heart hurts.
Now my cousins bring me more troubles.Their father sick. So now I have to take care of their father.....perfect.That is ok . I don't mind taking care of their father . After all he is my uncle and he can die anytime.It will be good to spend his last few life time with him.The problem is that I will have to stay over at my Mother's friend house. I cannot ...I will not. My family is spilt ...I'm doing my best to hold what left of my shattered family. Mom moved out ...it was a huge blow.... My brother....spoilt and perhaps selfish did not give much help to hold the family together even through he nobly spoke of doing it. Perhaps he has the idea but does not want to sacrifice to make the idea an reality.I don't know. Anyway I told him not to stay over at my mother's friend house so that mom will get the idea that we do not support her moving over. However, Mom took the computer to her place. My brother whose life at that time was filled with maple story. So naturally he also moved in with mom. Hypocritically argued that there's nothing wrong with it and kept silent when I outspoke him by saying that what he do will spilt the family.Any way I stayed and refuses to stay over for I know that my father at this stage of life needs alot of support. He is the type that takes pride in everything that he do but recently everything has been shaky.If I were to to stay over at my mom's place, I'm afraid that he may lose it.
He now put in additional effort to hold the family together ....he use to be stone like. He even favor me more for not staying over. He tries to make time in his buzy shedule bring my brother and me out. I know he is desperate now. Everything is falling apart in his life and the last thing he needs in fragments is his family. His health detoriates. This is why I'm yrying so hard to assure him that the family fabrics is still held together by some strands....I am those strands.....alone.....and taking hits from both side. This is why my heart hurts so much when I see a happy family.....because it is the thing I longed for.
Now I may need to move over to my mom's place to take care of my uncle.....
Mom continually bad mouth the people on my father's side although her side is just as bad or worse. After all my dad's side contain successful people while her side includes drunkards and a one dying from drinking too much. So much for a know it all parent. Now all I see is people who provide me basic necessites everytime I swallow their poison.
I just don't know why.My family bought me so much pain and has always do .My relatives just happily add salt to the wounds.There are many time I just wanted to shout out at them.....to ask them to go away from me.I cannot breath with them around.....they ruin my life as much as they build them.The worse is my brother. He is the only one among them who can seriously inflict pain for he is the closest.
I'm gonna make sure I'll never be like my family . I'll be better.I will not be like them .
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Tree Top Walk
Last Saturday we went for Tree Top walk which is organisedby Charles! Attendence was small but it's better this way hahahaz less people to look out for. So it's only Charles , Liu Shuai , Gordon , Elena and Me. We set off from church at 10am. Elena was tired by the time we reached the bus stop .lolz....have not even reach destination.
After sometime we were there.....I then found out that it's a long walk from where we are to the Tree Top walk .I was delighted by it ....coz....I figured that this trip could be .......well sort of training.Hahaz.The rest was ok with it but Elena was somehow stunned by it. Not a hiking person hahahaz. So off we went on a long tedious journey.The floor was rather slippery and loose rocks added to the complication.The hot and humid air makes us perspire easily.The flora and fluna twisted in interesting shapes.The walk brings back some old lament.....my Cross Country failure this year......Well I can remember it well and it still stab my heart hard whenever I think of it but soon , the Trees and the plants replaced my sense of regret into wonder , awe and bewilderment. I offered to help Elena carry her back ...hey I'm a gentleman ok. We cleared the forest and was blinded by the sun.We've reach the golf course!
The lawn was smooth and neat but is nothing compared to the mysteries of the forest.There were warning signs of flying golf balls...hahahaz we all joked about them. the streams were beautiful. The sun adds a delicate sparkle on the deep jade colour of the reservoir. There were turtles and fishes. Wide array or plants decorated the scenery. One word Breath-taking.I was thinking.....Wow ...has anyone pictured God as an artist?Went through some board walkway. Both Charles and Elena displayed their knowledge of mother nature. Elena also correct my prounciation of Fangi Pangi. We moved into another forest.Pictures were taken , jokes were make and Spirits were lifted what more can I ask for hahahahz.
After sometime, we reached petaling hut. A lost boy guards the place....lolz.Well he displayed signs of trauma but in his eyes i saw determination, courage as well as pride. A child that is not going to be beaten by situations like this.Admirable. After some attempts to console the boy the group moved on...well I ask them to . On my opinion People like this do not like to be consoled...i was right the boy distrust us hahaahz...We moved on Charles indicates we have to take a longer path. Elena was like in a daze lolz.Then we began to go up hill. Elena spooted a sign saying 250 meters more. She then decided to jog all the way. Well Gordon and me join in hahahaz after all how could I refuse such a tempting chance to exert myself . I was carrying 3 kg worth of water in my bag hahahahaz.Soon Elena gave up hahahz...Brother and me continued further till we decided to wait for everybody .
We reached!...Hmmm the walk was a little boring but the signs gave interesting info.
We went down through another boarded walkway. Saw two little girls hoping all the way... uphill... hahaahz their mom was praising them ...their father later join in....at this time I was hit by a sudden pain . One that I always feel when I see a beautiful family bond.Anyway Saw loads of butterflies most were Arduke Male.Loads of moniter lizards were sighted too ....cool!! they were so cute hahahahahz.We reached petaling bridge.saw monkeys hahahahz Elena had ealier claimed to be a monkey...I think she was regreting it le hahahahaz. We are now on the way back.
Saw more butterflies...the rare tree nymph was also spotted .Squirrels join in to bask in our attention. .We return to a caterferia to eat .Then it's home going....Wow ... great day. Elena says she will never hike again.Lolz .Fun will always be fun I hike for four years and grown to like it .
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Dark and troubled future.......
Hiya...people...it's been a long time since I blogged....due to recent unforseen disasters. The future seems rather bleak to me . but i'm sure everything will turn out alright.
The Boy's Brigade now is need of and officer.... Sir jon left ... This make the matter worse. The future in this area of my life darken . I believe that this is the time all of us from the Boy's Brigade should hold on together or we may perish.It's a painful thing to see something I put so much time come to such an end. I too pity my captain......poor guy.....Well we all Need hold on together as a Mighty Band of Brothers more than ever.
The Boy's Brigade isn't the only thing that add on to my emotional turmoil. My uncle's condition is worsening....Alot of people I know are now placed in life threatening situation.hmmmm My uncle have no hope of improving......that is painful.
My mom contiunes to be someone who brings about conflict much to my pain.... she treats my fathers side as people that cannot be trusted....or bad people... It's a wonder how those two get married in the first place. I'll make sure i'll never end up like them . Split families with poisonous words ain't gonna make my life easier.
Now with the more natural propblems. Adapting to new school life. hmmm Hope it will be easy.Wonder did i pass or not hahah... will I be able to get into a course I want? Time will tell...
All this pain and sufferings are beginning to take toil on my stamina and health but I forever hold on to the Lord ......Although the future seems dark, I believe everything will end perfectly...
Glory to God!
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