The End of Poly Serve.
Wow... Poly Serve ended....
Alot has happened.I'm slightly confused and feeling kind of sad that it had to end. Especially when you know you are going to miss the fun and the people... but I shall hope in the extended Poly Serve. Since I'm a Grad Servant, I've by default already signed up for all 5 of the days. Which is not a bad things if you have things...or people to motivate you. Haha.
My Tummy is growling a thunder storm...but my house is filled with nothing that fills the tummy.
Lessons learnt in Poly Serve?
SP people are now also considered to be really fun people!I used to not know much people in SP but currently through poly serve, I met some! Really glad to have met them. They are Rebecca, Sean (Shyan), Terry and Jeanell.
Patience and Trust as I manage a Group.
That Leading a session can be real scary despite being graduated from RP.
Worship Demands your Life. It's not just sunday singspiration.
As A Christain, expect Suffering and Rejection...This is someting I already know and observe. If you really wannna live out your Christian life, people will oppose you. As it is mentioned in 2 Timonthy 2:13 " In fact, everyone who wants to live a righteous live in Christ Jesus will be persecuted." It is a good refresher though.
Love should be a basis and motivation of my work and actions. If I love God, my prayer life will show. If I love people, i shows in how I talk and persuade people with the truth. If I love both God and man, It's called passion.
In fact God has been pretty good to me. He even blessed me with a private Poly Serve Session just for me. Last Wed, after our field work, God using Tengyu, got us to watch a movie Fireproof. This is the Context. I'm someone who needs passion. Because, as a person, I've been hardened, self centred and practically give no regards to God and man. I told God before Poly serve that what I need is passion for Him. To love Him. All I've done till now is only out of obedience. (Haha..must be the way I'm brought up. Same as my parents. The Habit of doing what you need to do and it end there.) However, Seow Chin point out to us that there is no true session that targets our passion. She mentioned that Passion cannot be taught and only God can change our hearts.
So ... back to the movie...It's about passion...=] I learnt the importance of putting your heart in. That genuine love that makes everything different. I learnt also that I'm very afraid of getting hurt. Therefore I do not have that passion. I'm afraid of efforts being rejected or wasted. But I learnt from the movie that it's not by ourselves. Of cos we can't love. How are we to love someone who spat on our work, who repeatedly turn us down no matter how much we do, how do we handle lack of gratitude ...or in short how to love those who don't love or care. The answer is , we can love because of God's Love. We can love because we are like that to God. HE continues to persue us depite the fact that we are stubborn, ungrateful, hostile , rejects Him, chuck Him out of our lives and spat at Him and what he has done and a joke and something that is impossible to believe. Because of that Love that God has for us on the Cross, we can imitate Him and love others. That's passion.
So...Now...I'm gonna learn to be a nicer person. I'll watch my mouth that no harsh words come out of my mouth no matter how bitter or angry I am. I'll start to go the extra mile. In fact, I'm gonna no make life easier for my brother and father by taking my mother's room. (For those who don't know, my mother left us to live with another man and my dad and bro kick me out of the room I once shared with my brother.Ever since then, I've been living a life of rebellion by refusing to take my mother's room...despite being forced to live inside. I slept on the floor in the living room and use the floor as my warobe. Various thing I do to make my life difficult) Still, I realise that this is not going to work. I gotta put myself in a way that they can see God working in my life. I'm gonna arrange the rom. Make it mine and make it nice and neat. Give no excuses to my self then I'll also do more housework.
Anyway, ate with some of the poly serve people to commemorate the end of poly serve. Had loads of fun with lots of good personal sharing. Saw Evie and learnt that she is part of the evangelism work. Wow...all this while I thought that she only study. But I'm humbled again and reminded not to judge. Hahaed the way back to the MRT station with Eunice, Sally and Julia. They are really the funny and self high people. Haha. Went home with Weisheng, Sally, Edmund, Tengyu (Lao Teng)and a guy whos name escapes me. We laugh and laugh because Sally kept creating a scandal between our friend Ginette and me. Which is obviously not true. Then I met Mavis, another of my Churchmate and Evie's Cousin. Hahaha... So It's hahaha with another Self high person.
Read through Jeanell's Blog and remembered my pranks on my group and some poly serve people. Hahaha. And I'm gonna be missed! Woots!. Faints.
Gonna prepare worship for CareGroup Later and also to rally the youths. So many things! Oh oh! Good news! A dear Church mate of mine, Clarence messaged me that he is free the entire of today. And asked if there are any outings. WOW!!! The beginning of this year he was the quiet sit at the corner boy! PRaise God for Changing his Life. My Sec one group really have alot of potential. I hope that God can use me to really lead the people to be people after God's own heart. =D
I think this is it for now. Byes!
Oh! I updated my blog profiles....it's like so out dated. Hahaha.