In the midst of darkness, light
Today, I'm blessed abundantly. Much as I'm being drained by people that God place into my life, I continuously see how God work wonders in my life. Just today, an impossible situation made flesh.
I'm left $35 for 1 and a half week. I was wondering... what to do? I'm going over to my dad's place. Which means famine. So the question about offering surface again. I'm supposed to give 10% ....which is $2. However, giving is something to do with joy and ... I've made a point to attempt to give more. Not that giving more would make one holy. It is more of. I wanna really give to God. To make sure that I do not love my money more than God and also to put myself in a position whereby I need to trust God to survive.
Well... I gave $5 and God decided to put me to a bigger trust. I've fogotten today that I wanted to contribute $10 to support an outreach program to bless the neighhood. $10 can get a bottle of oil and a sack of rice for some poor fellow. Haha.
So the task is this to give or not to give. I can pretend to forget and suppress my conscience. After all I did volunteer to help out on that day to be Logistic, Usher and Prayer. Easily reasoned that I gave much. (that would be forgetting that it is not the doing that counts but the heart) So I gave... that makes $20 for 1 and a half week.
Strangely, I was not worrying at that point of time. Starving was the last thing on my mind. Instead, God held me back from the Youth and ... set me to chat with Gladys's mother. It was a good long chat that took up 2 hours? About there... there I saw God's pain and I saw what could be a possible future. Or in fact it's already here but have not hit my life yet. Glady's mom might not have noticed the serverity of the situation. But there I felt God grieve...and ...I greived. I saw my complains to God about a few people in my life puny compared to the people Aunty Florence have in her life. Those poor people are really lost...so lost ... Words cannot express the helplessness of the situation.
Anyway, I went the Youth after that, that's where a brother in Christ came to me and pass me a love offerring. A Blessing from him... in it was ...$50. He and his daughter has always been a huge encouragement. An encouragement that not all things are ugly and mean. That there are nice people out there. But my blessings did not stop there. I got a $10 just now. That makes $60 Wow.... My cup overflows.... I gave 2.5 times...God gave 12 times back.
Haha.... Things are alittle better now. I was emoing over the people God gave me. They have loads of issues and in need of love. The verse that was given me on Sat. Shall be something I'll hold on to!
Isaiah 58:10-12
10 if you pour yourself out for the hungry and satisfy the desire of the afflicted, then shall your light rise in the darkness and your gloom be as the noonday.
11And the LORD will guide you continually and satisfy your desire in scorched places and make your bones strong;and you shall be like a watered garden, like a spring of water, whose waters do not fail.
12 And your ancient ruins shall be rebuilt; you shall raise up the foundations of many generations;you shall be called the repairer of the breach, the restorer of streets to dwell in.
Yeap...I'll pour myself out. It's going to be difficult working with people who drains your attention, energy and time. But if it pleases God,I'll gladly do it! The Afflicted need Luurrrvvee...hahaha.
And yes. God showed me the meaning of this verse. "11And the LORD will guide you continually and satisfy your desire in scorched places and make your bones strong;and you shall be like a watered garden, like a spring of water, whose waters do not fail." I'll hope and hold on to the promise of : "And your ancient ruins shall be rebuilt; you shall raise up the foundations of many generations" Ancient Ruins as in my broken lfe and family. Foundations as in the lives of people around me. =] yeah!
My aim will be to be called"called the repairer of the breach, the restorer of streets to dwell in."
So A new week comes...tomorrow test and I've not studied...HAHAHAHA.