Holey Holey Holey
Wow...today ain't the bests of day...
Looks Like I will not ba able to provide my friends support dduring FYP and my FYP is now in a precarious position.
I spent most of my time today quiet. Amazing right. Yeap Cos I'm troubled in spirit. I'm asking God. Why? Why are all the things happening? Oh Cos...my FYP clash was not the only bad news I had for the day.
My teammates are concerned. Well thank you but silence is really appreciated at times like that unless you know what to say or do. Well... After a while of sulking at God and wondering if that is the right thing to do ( I thought of Job. ), He made clear one thing...
Holy Holy Holy... Yeap that is all I've got. He's Holy
I've being asking Questions like:
Lord..Why do you do this?
I know I'm not perfect and have done many wrong things?
Have I not proven myself enough?
etc...
And yes...The answer is He's Holy. Therefore trust Him.
Hahaha...Although I do not get the full answer immediately. Holy Holy Holy. Is the first part of the answer. God always...builds up. He makes sure that I grow...therefore he do not spoonfeed.
I got my holy holy holy answer during Hui Min's FYP. I need to donate blood and they use this lancet thingy. Something that punctures your finger and makes it bleed. My blood did not flow out properly the first two times they attempt to poke holes in my fingers. They said that my hands are too cold. Well... yes..I'm feeling cold and depress at that time...not to mention hungry.
After they poke the third hole, I mentioned about having holey fingers. Then it struck me. Holey Holey Holey....sounds kind of like holy holy holy.
It sort of remind me to trust God's faithfulness. of Course I ain't comforted yet. I tried to figure out if God can make my situation better but I saw no light...so...I sulk longer...till around the end of my fyp of today, I decided...well..let go let GOD. TRUST AND HAVE FAITH.
Cos the situation is ...really....a disaster.
On the way back... I chatted with Ray. Yeap and yes...we chatted and we saw what God did.....
And it's wow....
God had been preparing this event from the beginning....My intended "perfect" plan is a self righteous rush from camp to school. God did not want that. I'll only become more arrogant and tire myself out. So God makes sure that one off our cells do not grow well...so that we are forced to reschedule some of that cell's experiment to other days. What is left over is lesser but at an amount whereby faith is still needed.
God intervened...to...save the experiment and....to build my faith in Him....ain't it beautiful? Haha....And yes...indeed. He's holy Holy Holy. I should trust Him andd Hold on.