Most Treasured
Finally....Finally...the Lord permits me to go and share His word.
I had been arrrogant and the Lord showed me that I am not needed to further His Kingdom.
Well...I'm the priviledged one to be able to take part in God's grand plan of salvation to all mankind.
So a note form God to change my attitude to Gospel Sharing.
Anyway, it's kind of scary thing morning. i was halfway there, then Carmen message me to tell me that there might be a change in plans. The first thought that came in my mind was.
" Lord this is the third time already."
I was scared. It could be the third opportunity taken from me in the role just because my heart was not right. But the Lord had greater plans and reassurance for me this morning. As i worry over the situation , I began to struggle with a few decisions that i have not made in faith.
My decision to leave SYFC a while and join in Campus Crusade. It was a great sounding idea when the Lord told it to me. Personal Reasons. Hees...Ok fine...I'll confess.
I was looking for more companionship. Mr lonely huh? Hees. There was there a point of time where I indulge so much into work (might not be much ..maybe just lousy...wait...definitely lousy time management) that I had little contact with people.
I thought I was ok. I keep droning to myself that God's work is more important. I need not all these friends thingy now. I have loads of time to play with them in heaven. Well...Not that I disagree with the mentioned statement....but I realise that I'm just not that strong. I forgot that an isolated Christian might as well be a dead one. Sitting duck to the red horn guy. My mood became increasing dark. ( Maybe it's the violent animes) I knew that I had to do something when I find myself starting to plan real fast on how to make the life of people who oppose me miserable. WOW! Talk about Autoimmunity. I slap myself awake....I ain't gonna hurt my friends. LOL
I remembered these sharing from my friend. She told her friend once. You keep saying that you have no friend but have you ever thought of how you treated your friends?
I thought about it....hey hey...I've been ignoring everybody. Yes... God's work....but in John 13.34-35 also mentioned that we should love one another. Well...robot Yu Ki will fail in that area.
It was then God gave me this opportunity to take up a offer to work with the Crusader.
It's not as easy as it sounds. I have an important position in SYFC. Well...I guessed that I stepped on some toes when i decide to leave. Most likey that they are concerned with me. In a ministry, it's really common to see people burn out or losing the heart to serve God. I guess I might have looked like one.
BUT HEY!! NO WORRIES!! Like I'm that Suicidal. Wahahaha.....I know it's a priviledge to serve God. I know the rewards...I know the benefits and I know what is it like in contrast to the worldly life. AND I CHOSE GOD!
Althought that still don't make me superman.. haha ! I do break down k? Just encourage. I'll appreciate it. Really! Questioning and poking will only serve to discourage.
And when that happens, my doing in faith becomes a little shaky... and we know that in the word of God it says that everything not done in faith is sin. Ouch...
Anyway, that does not also mean that I have a good working attitude. I'm a Super Slacker/Pro Procrastinator and sometimes..I just don't have the heart to do God's work. Hees...I'm not that Great ya know? It makes me feel guilty and bad when people tells me that I'm super on for God. I guess I know myself better(although I allow myself to be flattered and inflated.)
Still still God forgives me ..He taught me and reassure me that since I'm working for Crusade now, i'll do in faith believing that it will please Him and that it is His will. I prayed then and ask God to let me Share the word today. I ask God to not let it be cancelled. God was merciful. I meet up with Carmen and we went on the share.
i was afraid ...It's a long time since I shared the word of God. Campus Evangelism style. We got rejected...erm.....3 times? Wahaha...discouraging huh? I asked Carmen that we need to repray and ask God for favor. Well God provide a.....Burmese!! A Myanmar Student! Cool huh! We talked about Christ for an hour. Wow...SHE"S INTERESTED!!! She'll be learning more and meeting up with the SYFC staff for Bible study. YEEAH!! Praise God...I'm so happy.
May she accept Christ.
We made phone calls at Woodlands Outreach Centre after that.. Met Ian !! yeah Yeah!
Way home was a tough battle..but the Lord grant me prevalence! Yeah!
Oh! people loved my slippers.Hees...Nice Nice.
Stanford found the Game! YEah !! Three Cheers for STANFORD!
THREE CHEERS!
Lol....
Chat with my korean friend Arielle today! I ddo hope to meet her. Hmph....She's learning to dance! I'll be sending her a video to let her see the dance practise I had the last time. haha..she'll die laughing. Well..It's on Youtube now. Haha...i'll delete it soon...unless she wants it.
Cool Cool ! Yeah!
Pretty Painter Arielle!