Vision
Hmm... Have I lost heart?
Have I lost confidence?
I think so.
Current situation:
1) Super Demoralised.
2) Want to take a break from SYFC Ministry Work.
Seems pretty bad to me.
My attitude has also taken a turn for the worst. I'm becoming rather mean too. I have slack control over my tongue and an ill temper to accompany it.
Situation seems bleak...
Why?
What happened?
Oh...One of the SYFC people just called.
Within 1 minute of the conversation, I shut off. Don't ask me why. I just shut off. My reasons ain't rational and I don't wish to talk about them.
Anyway, I've just got more work to do. This is so annoying. Being in charge is so difficult. I wished at times that I can just play small parts. Giving big parts just ain't my thing right now.
I hoped to do small parts in each area and learn. I'm still in the chrysalis stage of my life. I feeel as if I'm dying at this stage.
Talking makes my blood boil. I hate phone calls that last more than 5 minutes.
I really dread them now.
I dread repetition too.
What went wrong?
How did things turn up like that?
I wanna cry...
There are so many faces and so many names in my head.
I want to reach out to them but I can't.
So many lives... lost just like that...
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I don't feel like blogging le.
I need time, more time.
There's a not enough for everything except blessings currently.
Think I'll withhold the good stuff and let you all hear the bad stuff for now.
My temper is a serious thing that needs to be droused.