A view at Darkness.
Something struck me. Struck me real hard.
Yesterday, I was in a discipleship group in Campus Crusade. We were sharing things and learning from the word of God. When something hit me.
We are Christ's ambassodor wherever we go. Yes. It's something I heard a lot of times but now it struck exceptionally hard at me. We are Christ's ambassador's. I knew i failed. I have not lived a God gloriflying life in class. Neither did i draw the lost to Jesus. Many times i failed to stand up for Jesus in class. I have not picked up the guts to stand for what is right and what is wrong. Sad huh? That shows how much I have not loved my classmates.
Anyway, that not what pained my heart the most. Because, in my current class, if christians are Christ's ambassdor, they are giving the message that Christ watches porn and that porn is ok. Which is real saddening. I can't believe that it is always the Christians that started into this topic and brought the whole class talking about it. It's the christians! While we Christians should stand by being pure, we end up as people going into topics of pornagraphy and even watching it.
It's a real sad sight. Jesus must have been crying. Either his children are silent or actively leading people away frow Him or just runnig further from Him. Yeah I feel like crying too.
Few days before, I attended a talk on pornography. My brother in SYFC invited me to tag along with a few other God-fearing brothers. Porngraphy is a big issue nowdays. The speaker, shared much about the dangers of pornagraphy and how it brings about a subtle but fast downward spiral. It's not pretty.
I learned that, while not all porn addicts ended up as rapist or sexual perverts, all sexual perverts and rapist started from pornography. Oh...if you watched porn, most likely you'll end up as an addict. Especially if you are guy. So guys, don't get yourself ensnared! Oh oh! there is this belief that girls ain't affected by pornography. OK I'll tell you straight to the point.
THAT"S BULLSHIT. Sorry For the rough word but that hit a sensitive spot. The numbers are increasing. When Satan's playing, there is no such thing as immunity especially when we all are fallen beings. We are against an fallen Archangel. In short, we are in battle against an enemy that is somewhat like second to God. Don't so cocky. Even if Satan has lost the battle, he has constantly been hard a work to bring down God's Children.
AND IF WE DON"T LIVE A GOD GLORIFLYING LIFE, most likey we will be living in a God tarnishing life. Revelations says about lukewarmness right? There is no sitting on the fence.
Don't get scared. I'm still recovering and trying to forgive myself for not living a life to glorify God. I had loads of blessings recently. Much more than just new handphones and Movie tickets. BUT I THREW GOD ASIDE. I still can't believe my wickedness but I'm not th kind that stuff my self with self pity and wimper. I'm gonna restart the fight and seek God.
There must be more than 10 instances I cast God aside. So don't blame my bitter emo-ness. Hahaha.
Pheww...Grandma's birthday is later! Yeah! Free food! Oh oh ! Do you know that I only have money for two meals? and it fits perfectly with the meals I'll need for today and tomorrow's lunch? The Birthday buffet is a God given miracle so that I do not starve ? Haha... Sometime I wished that I can exchange lives with people so that they can see how real God is in my life. Or to a sceptic how coincidental everything is.
The Rabbit bit me while I was poking it. Eeek...Stupid Rabbit. I'm having a 1 CM long deep wound. Beautiful Red colour with lymph fluid flowing out. Diao.
OHOH!! I'm going to do rock climbing every Tuesday! At Aljunied Emmanuel House! It's free!! Elaine! A fellow sister in Christ intro it to me. Oh ya, I've being emo-ing about not having an opportunity do do sports like I used to since the start of poly life.
God wasn't kidding when He states in Matthew 6:33-34.
But seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough troubles of it's own.
Haha! My Professional Profiling still worries me but I'm left with Interviewing and Conclusion! SO HAPPPY!!!! Weeeee!!!
Awww....Core meeting next Saturday...Sobs.....I don't like meeting and plannings. I wanna be a humble doer but I guess God has other plans for me. Wait and see Wait and see!
Oh....I missed Eunice my sis! I've forgotten to wish her happy birthday...but I did wrote in her birthday card. So nice of the TP people to invite me to write in it.
Prayer Requests!
1) Gordon (My bro) That weakling of a Ronnie noob has been sick for quite a while. Pray for healing . Sore throat and the tendercy to cough out furballs of his rabbit.
2) Yu Ki to be long sighted in planning and doing tasks. Responsibilty in all his given work. Pray for focus and discipline to do Quiet time early in the morning. Pray that he will be more loving and learn to administer and be a blessing to his classmates.
3)Aunty Seok Hoon - Went for a minor operation. Pray for her healing.
4) Uncle Chee Meng, His Sister and Don , Joey Audrian and family to cope with lost ones.
5) Love of God to touch Yu Ki's class. Both Christians and Non- Christians alike to experience God and His realness.
6) A and O level takers ! Pray for focus on God in this difficult hour. Wisdom and peace to go through the paper.
7) Someone to improve in it's job skills and win favor of it's manager and fellow people around it. To continue to grow in God and character development.
8) For RP's Prayer, Evangelism, Partnership (PEP) Groups in Republic Poly(RP) to strengthen and grow in numbers. Pray for the increase in like minded Christians to go forth into the harvest field to pray and evangelise to the lost.
9) QLC Youths to experience a revival! Members to grow to be God fearing and God Loving. Prayer for a spirit of love among the members. Also for End year Camp to be SUPER!!!!!!!!
10) Jaquerline as she prepares for her SAT paper! Pray for wisdom and God's guildance in leading her to where God places her.
Hmmm...YF time!