Angry Angry? For ?
So ...don't think that I'm some ... person who will be stung by the fact that the boys won't get their founders. The Question is , DO THEY DESERVE it? There is too little pain and regret in BB . There is too much compromise and too little discipline. You wonder why thinks are turning out the way they are? Well ...let me Quote the BB Objectives : The Advancement of Christ Kingdom among Boys and the promotion of habits of reverence, obedience, discipline , self- respect and all that tends towards a true Christain manliness.
I hate it when I lose control.
I hate it when pride takes over.
You know ..the moment you felt that everybody owes you something and that you are right everybody is wrong and they've got to see how unhappy you are. That silly self righteous moment whereby you expect every one to fall in awe of you?
YA like that ! Today!!!
After my Ex-Captain held me back for some administrative stuff. ( I was intending to walk a friend to the market. To ask him how is he doing. [I'm not gay just caring=p])
The chance snap in front of me. So did I . I snap. All my burdens heaved at me and.....I snap. hahaz.
I burst... into the Bolm hall. With a really irritated face. Something that I picked up from Geraldine and my brother. Well...the Irony IS THIS !!!!!!
I took great effort to reduce distraction to the miming team today. ( Erm...I wanna be a good example [Blush]) but at that moment of foolishness , I SPOIL IT ALL !!!! ( I explode into the bolm hall projecting negative feelings) . Waaaaaa .
Aunty Seok Hoon being a focused person , immediately eliminate the cause of distraction. " Yu Ki , we do not want any more disruption. Anyway the Bible Study is starting soon. Can you take your things to the Self-control room? "
That's is when I realised my stupidity . Tell ya something. I almost died of laughter typing this down. Believe me when I say, having a rlationship with God is never dull. He has the best sense of Humor. He is also the most creative being...afterall, he created creativity. Tell ya why.
" Yu Ki , we do not want any more disruption. Anyway the Bible Study is starting soon. Can you take your things to the Self-control room? "
Perfect punchline huh? I was stunned for a spilt second before I regain posture and reacted calmly with difficulty holding back intense remorse for messing up . ( At that time I did not get the joke. It was now)
Wwaaaa..What a day. Now I shall apologise for my out Burst !! SORRY!!! Well...I'm gonna do it personally too ! That will bring down my pride . After all one must humble oneself in order to make a sincere apology. Hees!!! For GOD I'll devote my Life!!!!
I'm Happy!
Oh ya..I'm going to share a scary thing now.
The DArk , heartless and scary Yu Ki.
BOOO!
Wahahaz...Sorry...Feeling High now!
Ok....My Ex- Captian told me this: Ok..I will take all this and those who never hand up will not get their badge. They will not get their Senior proficiency badge and their founders. Then they will come after you.
In my mind .... I cleared a few points.
I often wonder. . . are we advancing Christ Kingdom ? Among our Boys?
Promoting Habits of reverence, obedience, discipline , self- respect and all that tends towards a true Christain manliness?
Are we spelling Boys with the capital B?
SAdly...the answer to most is no....
Haiz....I'm gonna sleepp le....but guess what?
Me being me is unable to be as heartless as I mentioned myself to be...hahaz... I called the CSM and warned him that the boys who did not hand up will lose their badge. THis will give the CSM something to do and may save the boys. If they hand up , Captian sure accepts. Well...one thing I learned.....Forgive me for Stereotyping but this is what I notice. It is difficult for Business people to be honest.
Welll....So long ppl ! I hope my horror story send shivers up your spines. Hahaz. Faint. SNoresss