Pain of others ....my only pain
Alright time to know more about me.
Today's topic was on me for quite a while .
What hurts me more than suppressing myself?
Oh...if you not know that hurts me.... well ...you don't need to know.
ok...back to topic.
Let's have a few guesses....
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Betcha can't guess without looking first at my title.
Let me give you a situation :
You never knew much. You lived in a world of your own . Where life is sweet. Full of smiling people. Although you faced discipline. Caning you used to think first not of yourself but of others.
You remembered sharing with a maid about your mother. " They used to cane animals. Now they are caning humans and hitting animals with rods. What will happen to the children in the future? Will thay be beaten by rods?" Now a days when you think about that event, you laugh at yourself . Why? You seems so out of point. You think about why? Are you really that noble? If so ...are you the same now? Or are you hardened by the world's tough condition. You know that you took pride in discipline now. You know that pain build character. Then you think....Who was right...your past or you?
You are grown up now. Life still treats you well except for some times where you have to meet really mean people.Still life was good although you are exposed to all impurities of the world.
You too meet kind people. People who are just so good to you. You enjoyed alot from them . Free stuff...free gifts...lots of priviledges flood your life. You enjoyed it. Life doesn't seems to problematic. You still have the helpful streak in you. You did you best in evrything and make every effort to help people. In school, you were well know for your helpfulness and you are also known for being approachable . You are known as one who will not turned down a soul. You were commended by many. Who looks up to your ability to accept people as well as to be meek. You were one of the few that will not placed anger into a situation. People commend you for handling misunderstandings well. At Prom Night you even win an award for being the most accommodating person in your school. You feel good.
Recently, there are a increase in people seeking your attention. People dear to you. ( You treasured and loved every soul....even if they only blink in and out of you life because you are extremely lonely and you like to spent time with people.) This time however, they tell you things so painful and sad. You hear their pains. Their hurts . You are stumped. For the first time in your life , you unable to do a thing. For the first time in your life, you do not know how to help those around you. You tried to help...but failed. You felt sad. Soon more cases of unsolvable problems flood your life. You see the people around you fall one by one. Their lives ruined by problems so overwhelming that you can only grieve for them.
You so much wanted to help but you had no ideas how to help. Things seems to be beyond control. They ARE beyond Control.
You then feel the pain of having a good life. A life well protected. You felt guilty and burdened by the fact that people are suffering while you are having a comfortable life. The blows are getting harder. You did all you could and you realise...you are just not God. You want to just break down and cry. To cry out all the pain . The pain of everyone held within you .
Artist: S Club 7 Lyrics
Song: Never Had A Dream Come True Lyrics
Ooh...
Everybody's got something they had to leave behind.
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time.
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering).
How it could be now or neither been (or neither been).
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
I never had a dream come true.
Till that day that I found you.
Even though I pretend that I've moved on.
You'll always be my baby.
I never found the words to say.
You're the one I think about each day.
And I know no matter where love takes me to.
A part of me will always be with you.
Somewhere in my memory.
I lost all sense of time.
And tomorrow can never be.
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind.
There's no use looking back or wondering.
How it should be now or neither been (or neither been).
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go
I never had a dream come true.
Till that day that I found you.
Even though I pretend that I've moved on.
You'll always be my baby.
I never found the words to say.
You're the one I think about each day.
And I know no matter where love takes me to.
A part of me will always be with you.
You'll always be the dream that fills my head.
(Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby)
You'll always be the one I know. (I'll never forget)
There's no use looking back or wondering. (or wondering)
Because love is a strange and funny thing.
No matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbye.
No no no no .
I never had a dream come true.
Till that day that I found you.
Even though I pretend that I've moved on.
You'll always be my baby.
I never found the words to say.
You're the one I think about each day.
And I know no matter where love takes me to.
A part of me will always be with you.
A part of me will always be with you...
This song has always be strangely comforting. It seems to express me.