I loved you because I was first loved...by the way not by you...
Hmmm..Change Blogskin again. Wahahaha. Hmm This blogskin is beautiful . I like.
Hmmm looks like my Dad is on a path of self destruction again. Come to think of it...Behind every comedy is a tragedy. My dad is one big tragedy....it is good for a comedy movie....but I don't find it funny.....I'm affected too...well I choose to be affected by it.
This is a part of the tragic comedy. I attempted to give away MY BELOVED SWEETHEARTS, MY hamster and MY fishes to help him cope with our current financial crisis. I informed him that i'm giving MY fishes away . I got scolded....Great. THEN he claimed that MY fishes are his!?!
Now now....that's bad...very wrong too. They are not his... they are MINE. I LOVED THEM and I gave them away because I wanted to decrease my spendings and also to look for some one else who can better take care of them. Someone who could give them the good life which I .... now unable to provide them. This is hurtful enough....I then got scolded by the very one I loved more than MY beloved and trying to help. That's not all now my dad want to claim MY beloved as his....this is like too much.
Still I let things be. I just wish dad you would know that I loved you and put up with you because Someone had loved me and put up with me . Someone who would go to an extent of dying for me. That's why I continued to love you and stick to you even through I could have chose good life and make things so much easier for myself. I chose stick to you dad! But I have limits! I'm only human ok...just human under grace.I still fall ok. I may be able to hold now but I do not know how long. I ain't the one who died for me...By the way he died for you too...but you still chose to reject him because of your arrogance. Dad ...I'll still continue to hold on to what's left between this family. Mom left you because you keep breaking her heart with your stupidity and insensitivity . I may last longer than her...but I'll break one day if you continue to break my heart as you have broken Mom's heart with your insensitivity, stupidity and arrogance.Don't you dare hurt Gordon.